5 weeks PG after a loss...help!!

[trythisagain]

Last February I MMC...the absolute most horrific and mortifying experience of my life. when Cytotek nearly caused me to bleed to death and find myself in emergency, life saving surgery...I never thought I would be strong enough to TTC again. But now, here I am again at 5 weeks PG awaiting my first Dr appt this coming Thursday.
This time around...I am totally paranoid that something will go horribly wrong again. every little twinge...cramp...everything terrifies me and keeps me up at night.
iI know they say miscarriage again is as likely as before..but does anyone have any numbers or positive reinforcement they can offer? (Lightning doesn't strike twice...does it??)
Holding my breath...for 8 more months...

 

[MamaTex]

Hello try!! I can totally relate to how you are feeling. I have grown more confident with each passing week, but I am still nervous as heck!!! It doesn't go away but just try to keep in mind that this pregnancy is a different pregnancy. I am so sorry for what happened to you last year. Even after all that trauma, your body found a way to get pregnant so this is meant to be!! I am not a doctor or a researcher, so I can only offer what I have read and heard. This website is one I like to reference a lot.

https://sites.google.com/site/miscarriageresearch/miscarriage-general

Chances are this baby will turn out fine Congratulations!!

 

[Bubsta]

It is such a nerve wracking time isn't it. The first few weeks just suck!! And that's putting it mildly. I was a total wreck too. I was depressed and waay to scared to get excited about being pregnant. Dont get me wrong, i was glad that i was pregnant, but couldnt get happy about it. It's like our minds go into protective mode to try and lessen the blow WHEN it all turns to sh!t.... But guess what..... IT DIDN'T. It all turned out ok. And it WILL for you too. You have to just take each day as it comes. Think positively about every milestone you accomplish. Another day... Another week.... Your first scan, etc.
I promise you, it does get easier. Just hang in there and try and think positively. This is a new pregnancy and a new baby. Everything is going to be just fine.

 

[trythisagain]

Thanks Mama and Bub...It really is terrifying. I'm going to my doctor today...which I'm not sure if it scares me more or helps. DH isn't being overly supportive today either. All this defenseless about quitting smoking...just having to have that one...its really stressful. But I guess if its not one thing its another...right?

 

[scuffer]

I've just cried reading this thread after posting something similar, I totally understand how you feel. I hope it all goes well for you x

 

[momy2angel]

I know exactly how you feel. I am so sorry you had to experience a MMC, I had one too last summer and know how devastating that can be. Congratulations on trying again and look, you are now pregnant! You are stronger than you think! Everything will be fine and when your baby arrives, he/she is going to be sooo loved! I just found out (yesterday) that I am pregnant again and I can't lie, I am so nervous. I am trying to be strong and positive. Let's take this one day at a time. I believe each day that passes will be a good step. Wishing you all the best and a healthy 9 months!