A note of thanks

[Happy Yogi]

I've been quiet over the last month, because I had to take a step back. After trying to conceive since November 2014, I felt tired, overwhelmed, hurt, stressed, and lonely. My September period was the hardest to cope with yet, and I decided to take a break. Not from trying necessarily, but from ovulation predictor kit tests, the obsessing over symptom checking, the hours spent on this forum (and others), the guessing when I may ovulate, when I might take a test, how I might tell my family, all the cyclical thoughts that were making me miserable. I listened to my body only. And I wrote this quote on our refrigerator as a reminder: "The past is already gone, the future is not yet here. There is only one moment for you to live." (Buddha).

I did my best to live in the moment every day. I pulled over the car when I saw a beautiful park and sat for a moment. I spent more time listening to my husband. I sent my mom a card to tell her how much I appreciate her support.

Today, I got my positive pregnancy test. And I'm not sharing this because I believe that my approach to this month is the reason we finally had a success. But really, to thank everyone on this forum, to anyone who read my posts, posted words of encouragement, shared some advice, or shared their suffering. This community is so important, and even though I wasn't active this month, I went through this past month knowing this community existed, that I wasn't alone, and that I always had somewhere to come back to. So thank you. Baby dust and love to all.