I know exactly how you feel hun I've been addicted to chocolate and junk food my whole life. Even when I was a kid my mam would have an open tin of chocolates say in her bedroom at Christmas time and I'd make the excuse of going through her room to the bathroom to 'go to the toilet' but really to cram my pocket with choccies. I would dream of chocolate and send my sister to the shop to get a couple quid worth of stuff choc crisps sweets n that.
At my heaviest I was 27stone and bursting out of size 32 clothes from Evans - this was one reason I dieted cos its the biggest size they make and I thought well theres nowhere for me to buy clothes now I'd have to get them made etc also my boyfriend at the time told me he was worried I would die which shocked me.
I sold my car n joined a slimming club and walked everywhere. At fist it would take me 25minutes to walk to work n when I got there I was out of breath but soon got fitter n could do it in 15. I lost about 8 stone in a year from the walking and watching what I ate - I have to admit I did still have treats sometimes while at others I was knda obsessive about what I was eating and ate hardly anything.
Then I moved to the UK, got pregnant and had my little boy and now have joined Slimming World to try shift the rest of my weight - I'm about 19stone now and have lost just over a stone so far. I can't recommend Slimming World high enough - it's not like a diet at all you can eat loads and loads of stuff and still have your treats but obviously not so much. Maybe join if you can - there's loads of us on here doing it and helping each other.
One last thing - I am STILL addicted to junk food and chocolate and dream about it sometimes. I don't think I'll ever not be addicted but I need to try overcome it for my baby I don't want him having a fat mammy
. I can't eat a bar of chocolate just lke you I need another 5 after it and whatever else I can lay my hands on and even now I have bad days but just trying to have more good days than bad and get in the swing of it again. I really think for me I need to not eat any chocolate cos like pringles once I pop I just can't stop. Very hard though to do it
Sorry for rambling on just wanted to let you know you're NOT alone. If you ever need anything just holler xxx