See im a 100% single mum, I dont have no family or friends to call on when i need a break, or if im poorly or want a night out. Unless josh is at nursery 1-4pm sometimes 6pm then i don't go anywhere without either of them. If im ill its still me that has to get up & push through the days, yes it is very hard especially when you dont have anyone to take them from you at all, but the smile & each milestone your baby/children make just makes all the bad times fade, the good far outway the bad x