AF returned, didnt know I would feel so down...

[shiris]

Hi All,
So I mc'd on March 12 and AF just returned this week. While i'm so glad it came back, as i've heard it could have taken a few months, i was not prepared for how sad i'd feel. I've been dealing with the mc ok...for a week following i cried, felt terrible, all those things. Since then, while i occasionally have those moments, i'm doing ok and feeling positive about trying again. I wasnt sad that i got AF because i was hoping for BFP(although would have been nice)...i was sad because i wasnt supposed to be dealing with AF for 9 months Does anyone else understand this? I felt so strange and have been down a bit since it began...

 

[ab75]

Hi shiris, sorry for your loss.
I felt like that after my chemical in march. I am excited to be trying again but can't help thinking about how far along I should be. I hope you get your SHBFP soon xx

 

[shiris]

thank you ab75...i'm sorry for your loss as well.
i sat down and thought about it yesterday. Its also been hard because its the holiday now and its the time we would have been telling our friends and rest of the family ...it would have been 14 weeks now. I know i need to just move forward and i thought i was doing ok...i guess these feelings will just happen from time to time at what would have been "mile markers".
good luck to you and lots of baby dust for us both

 

[dairymomma]

Yeah, that first AF after a m/c is always a kicker. As you can see from my signature, I've had 8 losses so I know exactly what you are feeling. For me it's just another reminder of what I lost and it brings back all those emotions I thought were gone. But it does get better with time and hopefully you get your rainbow baby soon!