Well, here I am again. Pregnant. I am now 6+2 and so afraid that I will have to endure the emotional rollercoaster of a miscarriage again.
I miscarried in June at what should have been 10 wks, my baby had stopped growing 2 wks before. I had no cramping and no bleeding. It was a missed miscarriage. I found all this out at my very first scan. It was devastating, I had been so excited. I will never forget how it felt to just lie there waiting to hear the heartbeat. It felt like the silence would suck me away into a vacuum.
I knew the day before that something was wrong, I no longer felt the connection to my belly. I was shaking before the scan, but I didn't breathe a word to anyone. I was hoping that it was just paranoia.
I managed to somehow pull through those darkest of days to get to a place where I could talk about it without crying and now here I am with a new being inside of me. I'm afraid to even think about the fact that I am pregnant again and I cannot feel okay about it until I have that first scan.
The worst part is that i did not experience any clear symptoms before, so I am most afraid that it will happen again without me knowing at all. I would really love some encouragement.
I miscarried in June at what should have been 10 wks, my baby had stopped growing 2 wks before. I had no cramping and no bleeding. It was a missed miscarriage. I found all this out at my very first scan. It was devastating, I had been so excited. I will never forget how it felt to just lie there waiting to hear the heartbeat. It felt like the silence would suck me away into a vacuum.
I knew the day before that something was wrong, I no longer felt the connection to my belly. I was shaking before the scan, but I didn't breathe a word to anyone. I was hoping that it was just paranoia.
I managed to somehow pull through those darkest of days to get to a place where I could talk about it without crying and now here I am with a new being inside of me. I'm afraid to even think about the fact that I am pregnant again and I cannot feel okay about it until I have that first scan.
The worst part is that i did not experience any clear symptoms before, so I am most afraid that it will happen again without me knowing at all. I would really love some encouragement.
I was the same for my second pregnancy that ended in a loss. Now I'm pg again 3rd time, I realise what will be will be and there is no point working myself up, so I am just going with the flow so far. I know its hard but remember, the majority of pregnancies end well. You could always book yourself a scan for in a few weeks to give yourself something to aim towards x
