And year number 4 of trying begins...

[Moondance]

I used to frequent these forums heavily when I first started trying... I was even part of a group all trying to conceive together.
It got awkward when there were only 2 of us left as the others all inevitably got pregnant and left the TTC forums for the world of being pregnant and new mums.

But now, I'm back.
I've been trying all this time. Still with very little success. But... Now I've been started on Clomid. I hope it works, the whole TTC ride has been fairly discouraging.


Anyway, how's everyone else?

 

[DosPinkies]

I can't imagine how difficult the 4 year mark must be. I think it's a good thing you're back though. I'm just beginning this process, and I already need emotional support from others. I hope coming back is exactly what you need emotionally.

 

[BabyS14]

Welcome back! I hope clomid is what will bring you a BFP! I have a question.. Throughout the 4 years did you go to many different doctors and they just now prescribed you clomid?

 

[Dini]

I am also on year number 4. We started trying in 2010 and here we are still at it. We did a year of regular ttc then did a few rounds of clomid and had some bleeding issues so we took a treatment break and started up with treatments again a few months ago. I am on my second/third round of clomid for this year and have had one IUI with no bfp and hoping for IUI #2 next week if my follicle check goes well.

Maybe we can be buddies and support each other. I've found some great help on here and I also was active years ago, and was the only one in the thread that didn't get a bfp so I left also. Guess we have a few things in common.

 

[Moondance]

Where I live there is only really one fertility specialist and she's only available to me one day a month.
I first saw her at the end of year one, but she said persist and keep trying, if nothing at end of 2 years, she would assess.

So at 2 years I went back. She gave us a referral for hubby to have a sperm test. He kept saying "just one more month, we will try for one more month", so he stuffed around, took about 8 months to get that done. After it was done, it took me two months to get into the specialist who said his sperm came back average, and they decided they'd sent me for a hysteroscopy/laparoscopy/dye studies.... But in the public health system, it took me the next nine months to get in for the surgery. So finally, that got done at the end of October 2013. It all came back clear, they even did a D&C while they were there, sent some samples off, which came up normal also.
Then it took another month to get into the specialist. By the time I got in to see her, my menses had JUST finished, so I had to wait til the start of the next cycle before I could start taking it.
So this is cycle 1 of clomid, and I'm on day 9. Doctor says I should ovulate on day 14, so we are anticipating that.
I also have referrals to get two lots of blood taken, one on cycle day 24, the other on cycle day 28... Or something like that. To test progesterone levels.

 

[Moondance]

That would be awesome Dini.

 

[Dini]

I know what you mean about DH not getting on the ball for testing mine did the same! His came back not so good though, really really low morphology.

Good news the surgery and everything came out clear. Do you ovulate normally that you know of? I don't, I have PCOS and probably don't ovulate one own but once in a blue moon.

I'm on cd 18 I think. Had a follicle scan at day 12 that was not great so I go back tomorrow to see if the 150mg helped.

The long waits must be awful for you, I would have gone nuts but then again we have to pay for everything out of pocket and we will be waiting a few months again if this round doesn't work because we can't afford to do another round, every appt is at least $200 US and sometimes I have 5 or more appts in a month!

 

[haleiwamama]

Hi ladies! It feels painful to have been trying for 1 year with no success, I an only imagine what 4 years of trying feel like... I wish you luck and baby dust for 2014!!

This is also my first month on Clomid, Im so anxious... Im on CD4 and will start on it today, 100mg. DH and I have been trying for almost 1 month but expectations are kind of low because DH has sperm issues... I seem to be ok although we're not clear whether I ovulate or not because my OPKs dont show positives...

My DH was not very cooperative at first and was in full on denial.. almost like admitting he had a sperm issue made him less of a man.. but he's on board now.. drinks a lot less and is exercising again... Fingers crossed!!

 

[Dini]

Halei - Good luck for you this cycle! My first cycle of Clomid worked, but I still got a BFN, right now I'd be thrilled with a follicle lol. I know what you mean about DH and taking time to get on board, mine was kind of just along for the ride with the treatments, didn't want to do the SA and finally did, and after we found out he had a problem, it seemed to flip a switch and now he's more proactive, but still as much as I'd like. He does get a lot more depressed now, just like I do when things go wrong.

Had a new years day celebration with DH's family yesterday and his cousin brought her 18mo old and 8 wk old and I finally held him for the first time, and it was painful but sweet. I just want what they have so bad, and the kids are the center of attention, and I want that for our kids, I'm almost jealous but not for us, for our unborn children...sounds so stupid but I feel like people are ignoring children we don't even have lol...gosh what LTTTC will do to a girl!

 

[Dini]

Oh and I forgot to say, my follicle check was a bust, no growth for the 2nd time, so now I'm taking 200mg of clomid. Basically my ovaries are at a cd 3-5 when I'm really at cd 18. RE said they are stubborn and laughing at us, I wanted to say...I'm not laughing, I'm crying, but if I'd have opened my mouth I would have cried. It's harder than a BFN to see that your body isn't even co-operating with very high doses of medications that work for people everyday.

 

[haleiwamama]

I'm so scared about this infertility thing... husband is more cooperative now that we found out he's got some issues but not committed like me... im willing to do anything and I want to do it right now... DH is more like "I'll take supplements and be healthy but I don't want to stress out about this... it will work out"... that can be calming to me but can also drive me crazy (on my crazy days)..

I know how you feel.. I have gone through "lets get pregnant together" a couple times already... now I wont even go there anymore.... I dont talk about this with anyone in my circle, its too painful.. you guys are my fertility friends! I know how you feel about yoor unborn children... I feel like I love them already... I made life decisions based on the kids Im gonna have and it was hard to face the reality that I might not even have any.... (this is where my husband kicks in and makes me feel better...)

I seem to have plenty eggs, but I just dont know if I ovulate... I bought myself a fertility monitor this month and I'll be monitoring my ovulation with that, temps, and with the fertility doctor... i feel like I cant do enough to make this happen.... when did getting pregnant become so hard?

 

[Dini]

Keep me posted on how you like the fertility monitor. What kind did you get? I'm tempted to get one when we take a break but since I can't even get my silly follicles to mature let alone ovulate.

 

[haleiwamama]

Keep me posted on how you like the fertility monitor. What kind did you get? I'm tempted to get one when we take a break but since I can't even get my silly follicles to mature let alone ovulate.

I got the Clearblue one...

I haven't started using mine yet because AF is still around but I think it was the best buy ever! All of us who wait "longer" to conceive have some degree of anxiety we go through and I think that being able to test for ovulation more frequently will help... at least I wont have any false hopes because I thought I was getting pregnant, when i didn't even ovulate in the first place.. I'd say anyone who is TTC for 4+ months should get one...Wish I had mine months ago!

 

[Moondance]

I'm already getting a taste of what its going to be like with kids...
Recently spent time with my friends kids, and two of were riddled with headlice. So I got them, and got them bad. Today whilst out at the markets, a lady tapped me on the shoulder, took me to one side and said "I'm sorry love, but did you know... you have tonnes of head lice in your hair, you can see them crawling around".
Well, needless to say, I was horrified and raced home to get the treatment. I've been having an allergic reaction ever since. The stuff contained Eucalyptus Oil and Tea Tree Oil and I didn't realise. So ever since, my eyes have been sore and burning and itching and red.
I feel like poo.


Anyway, thats my interesting news for the day, LOL.
Just wanted to check in and see how everybodies stuff is going.

 

[Dini]

Moondance, that is terrible!! I hope since you are suffering with the reaction that it at least got rid of them!!

Head lice are awful, my patients come in with them at work alot, especially this time of year when the homeless population stay in very close quarters because of the cold.

Nothing new on my end, still waiting on my 3rd follicle check of this cycle on Friday. The doctor keeps taking me back to cd3 based on my lining and follicles, so based on my "new" cycle I'm on day 4, but in reality I'm on cd20. I feel more pain and twinges now than last week but I was feeling them last week so I expected more growth, hopefully they were just really slow and are growing now. My cycles average anywhere from 35-45 days, give or take, so according to my app, my O date (if I O'd) would be the 8th so maybe my body is just doing it's norm, although with the 200mg of Clomid coursing through me it shouldn't be!

 

[Moondance]

I don't quite understand how clomid really works as I'm feeling no side effects... Nothing. I feel the same as usual and still won't know I've ovulated until after it happens.
I'm on minimum clomid dose. Hope it does it's job. Would be nice to get PG on the first clomid,
But hey... I've got a full years worth of prescriptions if I'm kept on 50mg

 

[Dini]

I didn't feel much with my first dose and it did produce a follicle. I always get twinges in my ovaries, and did feel a little more than usual with the 50mg but not drastically, so you never know!

I'm impatiently waiting for Friday's ultrasound, although I'm sure they will tell me that I still have no good follicles. I have plenty of them, just not any large enough. I will be taking a few cycles off if this one doesn't work as we have no money left at all, I'm actually behind on a few bills so we need to catch up. Everyone just says it's fine, take some time off, you have time, but we don't really, I mean I'll be 34 next month and we are working on #1 and we would like a few so I really don't have plenty of time.

Although a month or two off would be welcome just to lessen the stress for a while.

 

[Moondance]

I'm currently dealing with my darling ferret being sick.
My second ever ferret.... I've had her almost 2 years. She is extremely unwell and pooping blood.
So enter high stress levels...
And I'm supposed to be ovulating tomorrow

 

[Moondance]

So I spent 2 days caring for my beloved ferret, Pandora, and at the end of those 2 days, with a huge vet bill, she needed to be put to sleep.
I am now trying desperately to raise the funds to cremate her, as the vet bill sucked up my funds.

 

[whigfield]

We are moving into year 4 this year too. Could I join you ladies?