happigail
Mummy to Kitty and Ashy.
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So basically when I was pregnant with Kitty at 38 weeks my blood pressure shot up sky high and I was hospitalized. I had a c section within a week. It was terrifying as I was pumped full of medication to drop it and at one point a panic button was pressed and I was told they had to deliver immediately. Luckily my bp stabilized and I held out a few more days. After the birth I started to freak out about lumps or a cough or more than anything my heart.
I got things a bit more under control then at 6 months fell pregnant again with a pregnancy of unknown location and had chemotherapy to end that pregnancy. That started the worst year of my life. I became obsessed with my health and the thought I was dying. I was often at the doctors 3 times a day with different things, I was bordering on a complete break down when I finally began counseling. Peter my therapist helped to save me, I miss him so much.
So now I am 28 weeks with a much wanted baby. But the health anxiety is creeping back. I still have fairly high bp so I've begun fixating on preeclampsia and heelp syndrome, spend the day crying and taking my bp (which a bit elevated until my husband sent me for a nap and I've just had a normal reading thank God).
I'm also worrying about the the big c and my big fear is heart attack and strokes.
Am I alone or is there anyone else out there with major health anxiety?
I got things a bit more under control then at 6 months fell pregnant again with a pregnancy of unknown location and had chemotherapy to end that pregnancy. That started the worst year of my life. I became obsessed with my health and the thought I was dying. I was often at the doctors 3 times a day with different things, I was bordering on a complete break down when I finally began counseling. Peter my therapist helped to save me, I miss him so much.
So now I am 28 weeks with a much wanted baby. But the health anxiety is creeping back. I still have fairly high bp so I've begun fixating on preeclampsia and heelp syndrome, spend the day crying and taking my bp (which a bit elevated until my husband sent me for a nap and I've just had a normal reading thank God).
I'm also worrying about the the big c and my big fear is heart attack and strokes.
Am I alone or is there anyone else out there with major health anxiety?
