At my wits end...

[Chellion]

Hi ladies,

I got on here as I really needed a venue to air out my issues. My hubby and I have an amazing almost eight year old but as a baby she was tough, she scared the ish out of us which made the idea of having a other child for my husband non existent. Three years ago he finally agrees to start trying. What sucks is that's exactly when I started becoming irregular. I used to be an every 28 day kinda girl- Thursday's after 3pm then boom! We start trying and I'm days late, sometimes a week late and BFN!! I was heart broken, I felt betrayed by my body. Then last year finally after two years, BFP. I was so excited and scared as I had just started a new job two weeks prior. This was it! It was finally happening. Then at my 5th week ultrasound the doctor seemed concerned, two weeks later it was confirmed- I had a sack and yolk but no baby. I had a DNC on Valentine's day.

Here I am again- after so much hoping that this time I'm late because it's it I'm also sitting here thinking nope- you better NOT waste money on a test (several times during the past year I wod be late (up to 3-4 days) and but a test and of course, I go to use it and there is blood on my panty liner (is this a sick joke or something??)

I'm four days late now- had some
Brown spotting last Wednesday. A spot of blood when I wiped once on Friday (1 day past due date of AF) a little more brown up until Saturday that turned into dark yellow/orange and now nothing (today Monday).

I can't bring myself to get my hopes up again. I'm 40 1/2 years old with an 8 year old come March-

Would love to hear your thoughts or similar stories. Thanks for reading.

M

 

[Chellion]

Well I couldn't hold myself off--it appears we were successful! There is a faint horizontal line with a string vertica line. Could this be true?!!!

 

[Vonn]

Oh my goodness, I certainly hope it is your BFP!! You deserve it. The entire 35+ forum has been slow with regards to January BFPs, so this would be encouraging to us all. Sticky baby dust to you!

 

[myra]

Congratulations!!as I was reading your first post, I thought it sounded promising and that perhaps the spotting was implantation bleeding. Nice to see your good news in the very next post!

 

[Chellion]

Thanks!! I took the test again and still BFP! I'm stunned. Baby dust for us all!

 

[penelopejones]

Thanks for posting! This gives us all hope. Good luck with the pregnancy!

 

[MrsTB]

Sorry I'm a bit late to this but this was so heartwarming to read & thanks for sharing. Gives hope to us all. I sincerely hope all is still going well with you.