Baby due Sept,Nervous wreck after second trimester loss!!

[frankieppo]

Hi,

I lost a baby girl last year. I have three sons and this is now my fifth pregnancy.

I had my 12 week scan & everything ws fine, babybond gender scan , then all of a sudden the following week I just didnt feel pregnant anymore??

I was sent by my doctor for an ultrasound & they found that her heart had just stopped beating. I have had no answers at all. The hospital were so cold & mean. One nurse said "Dont worry we will get rid of it for you"!! I was absolutely devastated I know it happens but feel like there is no support out there...

I am now pregnant again, Had an early scan today which dated me a week behind at only 5 weeks which worries me sooooo much!! I also do not have many symtoms this time. I am usually throwing up 24/7.. Every pain twinge I am at the toilet checking for blood.. I also have just taken 2 clear blue digital tests to make sure I am still pregnant ( I know I'm an absolute nutcase!!!) They showed 3+ but my scan today said I was just 4+6 days. Is this bad??

I am going over every single thing that could be wrong! Does this go away??

I'm hoping this baby sticks so much. I know Ill be a wreck until I actually give birth, Fingers crossed I get that far xxxx

 

[daisyr21]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. There is really nothing I can say because the fear of happening again is never going to go away. I had a miscarriage at 9+5 las September and just yesterday I found out we are pregnant again. I'm trying to focus on the positive eventhough it is hard. Hang in there and at least you know that any worries you have you can come and vent here

 

[Nervousmama]

I know how hard it is to stay clam and optimistic after a loss. I am hoping the next few months will fly by for you with an uneventful and safe delivery of a
Lo.

 

[mommatoB]

im so sorry for ur loss! I had 1 mc at 9 weeks and 1 etopic. prayers for u and bean

 

[Bubsta]

I am so sorry for your loss. When I found out I was pregnant again after my loss, I was terrified too. I was glad that I was pregnant but I couldn't bring myself to be happy or enjoy my pregnancy because I was so scared it would happen all over again. I was depressed and felt lost. I questioned every symptom and every lack of symptom. Try not to focus on HPT too much. i stressed myself out over those things too many times. they are not that accurate. In my case the CB test would say i was 2-3wks when I was 6-7wks. they are horrible things. Then the lines would get fainter which devastated me because i didn't know about the 'hook effect' where it gets fainter if you have too much pregnancy hormone in your system. I learnt they are best to determine IF you are pregnant and then step away from them.

What you are feeling is completely understandable and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I will tell you this... From my point of view.... It DOES get easier. You WILL start to feel better and you will be able to start to even enjoy your pregnancy. Just hang in there. As you get past the time where you lost your LO... Each week.... Each scan.... Each milestone.... You will start to accept that this baby is going to make it. You will always have concerns but it will be nothing like what you are feeling right now. You have three beautiful boys. Your body has proved time after time that it can make healthy babies and you willl again. The odds are truly in your favour that this LO is going to be fine. Remember this is a new pregnancy and a new baby. Good luck sweetie. Lots of sticky baby dust to you and have a happy and healthy nine months.