big day tomorrow. . .

[lilwelsh1]

for me in my head. Its the 18th and i will be 5wks n 1 day, my last mc was 18th and i was 5+1. It took a whole week of cramping and mild spotting before they confirmed i had mc'd. So positivity is at an all time low. I feel ok in myself, but every little niggle frightens me. Thinking i will use the next 7days to try n relax. The only positive spin i can put on is that as its a similar date and im the same amount of weeks maybe fate is putting things right, that somehow i was meant to have another child but not until july (as opposed to april) i must sound mad i guess we find hope and comfort in odd places. So harder than ever im praying beany will stick hard. Just hope the back ache eases, i can put that down to wearing stupid high heels and poor posture while cutting hair. It goes away with rest. Hope u r all well this evening xx