can anyone imagine seeing 2 lines and holding there own newborn again?

[Gemmamumof2]

Finding out i was pregnant and giving birth seems sooo long ago now!
i let myself day dream get that + ... but part of me thinks im kidding myself im never going to experience that again! i can only imagine smelling and holding my baby again and sharing the experience with partner, seeing his face first time he looks at our baby

see daydreaming again..

 

[CandiceSj]

Don't feel down, I know you have been trying for a long time, but you could get pregnant at any upcoming cycle! Things might not have been in perfect condition for the other cycles, but this could always be the one!! It HAPPENS all the time!

 

[purechaos109]

I'm with you! I've begun to wonder if I'll ever see the BFP or hold a newborn that is mine again! I have a pic from DS's birth that totally sums up the moment you were talking about! Mine and DH's first view of DS! It gets really hard to think about!!

 

[Gemmamumof2]

it sure does, my eldest isn't my partners and my daughter was born premature and partner was trying get home from work when i gave birth at home alone so he missed it all ~ of course same could happen but i really do want another my friend just announced shes pregnant after trying for 1 month i am happy for her but i just felt overwhelmed - not sure if i can handke her growing bump and seeing her with a newborn and me keeping it together..

hope things change this month

 

[bumski]

oh im with ya there hun, im getting to the end of the line now, its been nearly 4 years ttc and 6 years before that ntnp,im going to june then ditching the ttc and accepting i will never have another baby and going to have to get on with my life

i feel iv had to try everything possible so i dont regret anything in the future, i also think ttc will be in the back of my mind always but it makes me so sad the thought that my DH will never have his own.

GL to you

 

[Gemmamumof2]

thats how i feel .... we're going to august then im having implant.

i know it seems im stamping my feet but it is really hard every month, at least if i know im not getting pregnant i can get used to it im back in control of my body.

 

[bumski]

i know where your coming from otherwise it will always be there, what if i am????

or i think i would be tempted to buy opks or hpts, FX we both get our BFP before we get to the cut off point

 

[Gemmamumof2]

to you cant believe how long you been trying you have patience thats for sure.

i love your avvie - is that your dog?

 

[bumski]

yeah one of them, i have a bitch too, right babies

iv felt like giving up so many times but to be honest i only started oving in june after having OD, fs told me it will work for 12 months and after that its ivf which isnt an option for us due to costs, so we are left with about 6 months of really ttc.

have you been checked everything is ok? drs dont seem to understand secondry infertility for some reason, it took me ages to persuade them to do testing, turned out i was never oving and i have severe pcos

 

[Gemmamumof2]

i have spoke them a month ago, because im only 'trying' im havnt been taking vitamins or ovulation sticks or anything 'naturally' to aid it so they told me try that for 6 months and if nothing then go back. i think its because i already have children they said that as I havn't heard them say that before.

however i been taking evening primrose oil since period and been using opks... i've never had so much stretchy cm ever!! im usually dry then wet sorry tmi but tmi again i can stretch this between finger and thumb til my hands straight and then it dont snap, so feeling hopeful i'll ovulate this month

i REALLLY you catch your sticky bean b4 june!!

i have a white staffy to she is like a baby,

 

[bumski]

aww, i love staffies!!

i also take epo and it really does make a difference, before i ov i never had ewcm so didnt know what it was like, but its sooo there when ov is approaching, sounds like your getting very close hun, get dtd so you dont miss it, GL babe, keep me updated on how you get on

 

[Gemmamumof2]

i will and thankyou opks not giving me much hope tho the other lines getting lighter.. serves me right buying cheapies lol..

i'll just bd every other day!! lol

in ur siggie i see you had angel baby 5 months ago... i know its not any help but it means somethings happening and you can concieve

all the best hope we can be here in few weeks joining up as bump buddies xxx

 

[bumski]

yeah that would be nice hun, i feel kinda guilty sometimes in ltttc because most women there dont have any children, im so grateful for what i already have and my heart goes out to them.

when im about to ov i get all the signs and my opks just get lighter too, then as im about to give up on it BAM!! i get a nice strong one

when i had the drilling done in june, i ov 14 days later at about 11dpo i got my first pos on a frer, i was so over the moon, i spent so much on hpts because i just didnt believe it, then when i got my + on a digi, i started to bleed about a week later, it took me months to get my head round it, i was so so gutted, and ready to give up.

stick at them opks, oh and i know a couple of women on here who never got a positive opk but ov for sure as they had blood tests to confirm, one of them is now 7 weeks pregnant, im just waiting for an update on her scan today

 

[Gemmamumof2]

aww bless her... i feel guilty aswell. but im sure every woman who wants a baby this bad feels the same weather there on 1st or 10th

 

[40yearoldmum]

Yes, you guys are feeling the same as me. Ive put on a stone since I've been trying to get pregnant again, and with the pregnancys that I lost I kind of dropped my exercise. I've just signed up for a half marathon in May, really to shed the stone, but hopefully it will take my mind off it.

 

[bumski]

i dont blame you hun, its good to have something to focus on, ttc takes over so much, thats why im giving it til june then we will go back to ntnp.
i sometimes feel guilty with DD too, i mean, if its not going to happen then maybe i should be spending every minute with her and stop obsessing over what i dont have.
she is my absolute world and would die for her but i sometimes wonder how she feels knowing we are ttc, she knows about all the tests and appointments etc and is very supportive but i sometimes wonder if it annoys her.

i have also put on weight in the last few weeks, its so easy to let go when we are distracted so much

so now its time to get fit!! GL with the marathon hun

 

[Gemmamumof2]

i feel same with my children but they do keep my mind off things im only 2 dpo and i have af cramping though

 

[bumski]

yay for being 2dpo hun i can obsess over your symptoms now as im cd4 and at the boring stage.
cramping is always a good sign, lets hope it keeps up but without af

 

[Gemmamumof2]

fingers crossed .... well i used opks this month noticed i ovulate alot later than i though meaning i only have a 10 day lp ?

 

[bumski]

oh no

have you tried that vit b? im not too sure how it works but its meant to be really good at lengthening lp, hey a girl on here just got her BFP and she only had a 7 day lp, so anythings possible

how are you today? do you still have cramps?