reneny1
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I am losing it. Today, I did a walk through at Walmart in the Baby section. I have vowed not to buy anything at all until the 2nd trimester but that is approaching and I just thought I'd walk through quickly and take a peek...
So I go through the first time and start having a panic attack. I thought maybe it was just progesterone heart palps so I went to get shampoo and then came back. That's when the crying started.
I got the heck out of there in fear that someone I knew would see me having a nervous breakdown in the baby section. No one knows I'm pregnant yet and that would be a crappy way for the rumor mill to start. (Small towns... )
So, I've had some time to try to understand... I was standing there amidst everything... bottles, diapers, wipes, car seats, strollers, cribs, bassinets, those bouncy thingies, baby monitors, crib bedding, burp cloths, baby tubs, towels, butt creams... and I realized that with a 19 year old and a 22 year old, I am incredibly under equipped to bring a child into this world.
I NEED ONE OF EVERYTHING AT LEAST! My SO and I have NOTHING. Nothing at all. I am starting from scratch! OMG! What did I get myself into here????
I'm much calmer now and my SO thinks I have lost my mind... but really. From. Scratch.
So I go through the first time and start having a panic attack. I thought maybe it was just progesterone heart palps so I went to get shampoo and then came back. That's when the crying started.
I got the heck out of there in fear that someone I knew would see me having a nervous breakdown in the baby section. No one knows I'm pregnant yet and that would be a crappy way for the rumor mill to start. (Small towns... )
So, I've had some time to try to understand... I was standing there amidst everything... bottles, diapers, wipes, car seats, strollers, cribs, bassinets, those bouncy thingies, baby monitors, crib bedding, burp cloths, baby tubs, towels, butt creams... and I realized that with a 19 year old and a 22 year old, I am incredibly under equipped to bring a child into this world.
I NEED ONE OF EVERYTHING AT LEAST! My SO and I have NOTHING. Nothing at all. I am starting from scratch! OMG! What did I get myself into here????
I'm much calmer now and my SO thinks I have lost my mind... but really. From. Scratch.