what can I say I sort of understand these women, if (or better still WHEN) I finally get pregnant only my close circle of friends and close family would know how long it took and how hard it was, as for the rest (especially my colleagues) my story will be a short one: "that was a complete accident, took us by surprise, can you imagine this one time we did not use a condom and thought we can get away with it!" you can call me a liar (if I ever get there, that is) I do not care, I am not poring my heart out and it is not about making anyone jealous, it is about trust and self-preservation. This is the area of my life where I am absolutely unprotected and vulnerable. One negative comment and I will fall apart. I can be honest here as ladies that go through TTC will understand and wont judge, I can be honest with people I trust but most of my acquaintances are just not trustworthy, they have never been there they cant relate so they just do not need to know.
most of my relatives if they only knew about my struggles would probably say "we told you so, you should have married and have babies in your 20s, what did you expect, you are too old now". I do not want to give them the satisfaction of saying that! as for my colleagues, am supposed to be a career women here, I cant come out saying I do not really care if you make me a partner or not, because even if you do it wont compensate for the fact that I do not have a baby.
sorry am being negative again... just one of those days