Vickieh1981
Missing my precious girly
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For want of a better word.
I'm not sure why this is happening now or what causes these times when it happens.
I keep thinking about when they told me she died. I laid back on the bed and the sonographer started scanning.
She said "When was the last time baby kicked, have you had any bleeding or cramping?" I remember looking to my Mum (John was at work) and saying the baby is dead Mum. She said don't be so silly and me screaming at her "Well do you see a heartbeat??" I didn't cry then. I just said to her take the kids out please Mum.
Then after the second scan to confirm it I remember ringing John. I feel so bad for him that he had no warning (not that I did either other than a feeling that something wasn't right before I went in). I just said to him, John come home now. He asked why and I just blurted out because our baby is dead Nobody should be told like that.
Then I think the worst bit was coming home to tell the kids. After the scan I had to stay to speak about what they were going to do with me so my Mum came home to get the other kids from school and she told me they were so excited walking home wanting to see the scan pictures.
I remember telling them to sit down as I had some bad news. Andrew (11 year old) said Oh no it's another boy isn't it. I said no, sorry but the baby has died. I will never forget how my boys wailed and threw themselves into me I think that's the worst part, how bad i felt for my children
I guess this is a pretty pointless post but for some reason I felt the need to right it down. Maybe that will make me feel better.
I'm not sure why this is happening now or what causes these times when it happens.
I keep thinking about when they told me she died. I laid back on the bed and the sonographer started scanning.
She said "When was the last time baby kicked, have you had any bleeding or cramping?" I remember looking to my Mum (John was at work) and saying the baby is dead Mum. She said don't be so silly and me screaming at her "Well do you see a heartbeat??" I didn't cry then. I just said to her take the kids out please Mum.
Then after the second scan to confirm it I remember ringing John. I feel so bad for him that he had no warning (not that I did either other than a feeling that something wasn't right before I went in). I just said to him, John come home now. He asked why and I just blurted out because our baby is dead Nobody should be told like that.
Then I think the worst bit was coming home to tell the kids. After the scan I had to stay to speak about what they were going to do with me so my Mum came home to get the other kids from school and she told me they were so excited walking home wanting to see the scan pictures.
I remember telling them to sit down as I had some bad news. Andrew (11 year old) said Oh no it's another boy isn't it. I said no, sorry but the baby has died. I will never forget how my boys wailed and threw themselves into me I think that's the worst part, how bad i felt for my children
I guess this is a pretty pointless post but for some reason I felt the need to right it down. Maybe that will make me feel better.