Hi everyone! I'm just looking for some insight/support during what has been a pretty difficult pregnancy for me. I got pregnant after IVF with ICSI for severe MFI issues, and while we were so fortunate to have it work the first time, it's been fraught with problems. I was really sick at the beginning, then baby was diagnosed with a heart defect, which thankfully either healed or was misdiagnosed, but shortly after we finally got cleared from that, I had a preterm labor scare and was on modified bed rest, and NOW baby is having trouble growing. At my 30 week appointment my fundal height was low so got sent for an ultrasound, where we found baby's stomach to be small and weight to be low. Looking back over past ultrasounds, my doctor noted that from 18 to 30 weeks, baby had been consistently dropping growth percentiles. She went from above 50th to in the 40s, then 30s, and at 30 weeks, in the 20s. I've been put on biweekly NSTs and weekly AFIs, and I had another growth scan yesterday at 34 weeks, where baby is now in the 15th percentile. She does great on NSTs, fluid levels have been good, and dopplers are good, so we can't find any reason for why she's dropped so much. In the last 4 weeks alone, she dropped 12 percentile points.
I know it's great that she seems to still be doing well and not be in distress, but I can't help feeling so scared. My doctor said there is no chance she will let me go past 39 weeks, but we'll be evaluating growth again at 37 weeks and inducing then if she's dropped further. I'm obviously keeping up the monitoring appointments, but that part has gotten so scary to me. I'm just so nervous that in the next 3 weeks, she'll suddenly have trouble and we'll have to induce right away. Just sort of makes me feel like a ticking time bomb, and they keep stressing that I do kick counts and pay attention to her movement, so I feel paranoid and worried that she's going to start going into distress and I won't know it or catch it in time. Realistically I know that growth restricted babies generally do very well, but it's so hard to relax when you know something isn't quite right! My dr is trying to get me into the perinatologist ASAP for further evaluation, but my insurance tends to make things difficult and slow.
Sorry this is so long! Anyone else been through this and have some coping tips?
I know it's great that she seems to still be doing well and not be in distress, but I can't help feeling so scared. My doctor said there is no chance she will let me go past 39 weeks, but we'll be evaluating growth again at 37 weeks and inducing then if she's dropped further. I'm obviously keeping up the monitoring appointments, but that part has gotten so scary to me. I'm just so nervous that in the next 3 weeks, she'll suddenly have trouble and we'll have to induce right away. Just sort of makes me feel like a ticking time bomb, and they keep stressing that I do kick counts and pay attention to her movement, so I feel paranoid and worried that she's going to start going into distress and I won't know it or catch it in time. Realistically I know that growth restricted babies generally do very well, but it's so hard to relax when you know something isn't quite right! My dr is trying to get me into the perinatologist ASAP for further evaluation, but my insurance tends to make things difficult and slow.
Sorry this is so long! Anyone else been through this and have some coping tips?
I just want to give you a huge hug hun. Im sorry youve had such a rough time of it with your pregnancy. 
