Everything is flooding back

[Laurenmomma]

Last July I found out at a 21week scan that my baby had died at around 16 weeks, even though it was my first late miscarriage and 3 healthy babies I kind of knew. I got pregnant again in October and I'm now 28 weeks, it's been so emotionally draining and hard work just to get to this point.

Last night I had horrendously itchy legs and straight away I thought of OC, my friend just had a c section as she had it but diagnosed about 34 weeks.

It's now made me think back to the last pregnancy, at around 15/16 weeks I had the same itchy legs and arms like intense horrible painful itch. I went for blood tests about a week later and they came back ok. Then the itching stopped.

Now I'm thinking what if if got OC now and I had it last time, what if that's what killed the baby, what if that happens again!

Iv got blood tests and midwife appointment tomorrow so will express my concerns but I'm so anxious right now and the wait for blood results will be horrible as it's the bank holiday il be left waiting a week!

I might. It even have OC or had it last time but everything points to it. I'm so tired, I'm drained I can't sleep because I'm always worrying about something or reliving delivering the baby in my bathroom and seeing him grey and lifeless.

I just want to be positive ☹️

 

[Dana_Scully]

I just wanted to say so sorry for your loss and I hope all will go well this time. ❤

 

[Berri]

I'm so sorry you lost your baby. I think it's great that you've made an appointment to see your midwife and hopefully she can help calm you down a bit. While it must be terrifying, you can do this, Try to find some comfort in the good things (baby's kicks etc.). Bank holiday or otherwise hospitals will be open and if you feel something is wrong, go in.

 

[Laurenmomma]

Well Iv had the blood tests so just waitin for results now said can take upto next week ☹️

The midwife I saw wasn't too knowledgable so didn't give me no reassurance hate this waiting and worrying

 

[corky678]

I hope everything works out for you this time. I can't even imagine the pain you must have endured and still do to this day. Hopefully everything is fine, and you have a healthy baby! Kind of a personal question, you don't have to respond if you don't want to, but do you think if, god forbid, something did happen that you would stop trying to have anymore kids? I don't know what I'd do in that situation... Praying that everything works out for you and your family.