feeling guilty :(

[jo_79]

Didnt know whether to put this here or ttc but its the 3rd anniversary of my little girls birth/death tomorrow - she died when i was 29 weeks pg.
Im now ttc for the first time and in 2ww and i feel guilty as hell.
I just feel that i should have spotted something was wrong but i didnt and now i feel bad that im trying to have another baby.
95% of the time im fine with my feelings about hollie but today im feeling really shit
I dont really have any questions like the other posts i just wanted to get it out

 

[oxSarahxo]

I feel like that sometimes about Jessica. She was over due ( 40 + 5 weeks ) and died of Meconium Aspiration Syndrome and Persistant Foetal Circullation Syndrome.

born oct 3rd 2008 and died oct 4th 2008 @ 7 hours old.

I'm TTC again now and yeah, I get the same feelings of guilt, all the time to be honest.

I think maybe it's normal?? I'm no shrink so I don't know, but come on, losing a child in whichever way, shape or form is HARD. We can't all be rocks and as strong as ever all the time, we are only human.

 

[Rumpskin]

for you my sweet and your little angel xxxx

 

[jo_79]

Thanks sarah
I think your right, i wouldnt be normal if i didnt have these feelings.
My family didnt approve of her father (thank god he's long gone away from me) so they never talk about it, even when i try and bring it up, they hear what i say then give like a few words of an reply and change the subject. My partner now is great though, he's taken the day off tomorrow so i dont have to be on my own, he just did it off his own back without me asking, bless him.

 

[Hevz]

Sweetie


I have felt guilty everytime I've got pregnant again since I lost Rachael and Thomas and I think it's just the norm. It was Thomas' 7th birthday yesterday and I beat myself up as I wan't in the right frame of mind to go to the grave and had loads of contractions so was worried about the baby I'm carrying too.


Good luck TTC and hope all goes well for you next time

 

[LaDY]

xxx

 

[Barneyboo]

 

[oxSarahxo]

Thanks sarah
I think your right, i wouldnt be normal if i didnt have these feelings.
My family didnt approve of her father (thank god he's long gone away from me) so they never talk about it, even when i try and bring it up, they hear what i say then give like a few words of an reply and change the subject. My partner now is great though, he's taken the day off tomorrow so i dont have to be on my own, he just did it off his own back without me asking, bless him.

I'm not with the baby's dad now either, he was a waste of a skin lol

Hope ur feeling better now x

 

[jo_79]

yes thanks - i think the big glass of wine helped as well as all you lovely ladies

 

[Drazic<3]

Im sorry, i don't know what to say. Just wanted to give you all big

 

[KKSARAH]

Just want to give you a big

 

[honeybunch2k7]