Feeling Like its all over

[PinkPotions]

Hi girls, has anyone been convinced they were miscarrying and gone on to have a healthy pregnancy.

CBD has said 2-3 for over a week now even though I think I should be 5-6wks, won't get my bhcg results until Friday but I just woke up this morning 'knowing' it was over.

I'm not sure I'm strong enough to survive another loss and the stress and worry is destroying me

 

[shelley22]

I wish I could say something to help you but I cant. I didn't want to read and run though. Fingers crossed for you xxx

 

[mnicole]

I know the stress and anxiety you are feeling. I am 15w2d as of today, and my stress and worry level is still high. It's really awful, how the innocence of excitement has been taken away. It's downright sad, pregnancy should be enjoyable, right?
Anyway, yes, I spent from just over 3 weeks (when I found out) until present worrying, thinking that something is going to go wrong, it's just a matter of when. People telling me to not think about it, does not help. You don't stop thinking the worst, unfortunately.
What I did do, is buy a home doppler, and I LOVE it. I can hear baby anytime I want, and it is extremely reassuring. That really is my only way to calm down at this point.
Good luck, and I wish you a very healthy and happy pregnancy!

 

[PinkPotions]

Yes I agree I feel like my past has robbed me of any potential happiness this time round.

My lady bits are achy the last couple of days and I've had brown discharge. They've moved my early scan to tomorrow morning - I'm praying for good news but beyond scared.

 

[elleff]

I have everything crossed for you. How many weeks are you? I was absolutely convinced I would lose this baby. Obviously I'm still not taking for granted that my baby will actually be here in December but as time goes on you do get a bit more confident.
I managed to get a scan at 6+3 and I was just sick with worry, I 'knew' there would be nothing there, when actually there was a beautiful little bean with a pounding heart beat. Then within a couple of weeks I was sick with worry again, I 'knew' again that my baby had stopped growing. I got a doppler and managed to hear the hb at 9 weeks, then I just couldn't find it again. My husband and I would try for hours but nothing. I managed to get another scan a couple of weeks before my scheduled scan at 12+6 as I just needed to know. Anyway there was my hyper little baba flipping around all over the screen, stretching and moving all around, again with the lovely heart beat. They also put me forward 4 days at that scan to 11+5 so I didn't get my next scan (boo) but I felt much better. I decided to ditch the doppler until at least 15 weeks, and then when I did try it just before 16 weeks I got the most amazing sounding strong hb straight away!
We worry all the way through after a loss because we know the harsh, agonising reality of losing a baby and just don't know how we would ever go through it again. But, loss is so common and it doesn't mean that every pregnancy will end that way.
I really hope everything is ok at your scan tomorrow. Big huge hugs to you

 

[PinkPotions]

I'm not sure how far gone I am to be honest, after the pain of past miscarriages and failing all fertility treatment we gave up trying. It's been 7wks exactly since my last period but they were never regular ranging from 28-36 days.

So I have no idea at all. My biggest worry is the CBD conception indicator. It showed 2-3 on evening wee 10 days ago but was still showing 2-3 on FMU yesterday, levels just don't seem to be rising and my doctors is 3 days waiting time for hcg results

 

[elleff]

When do you get your results? My advice - stop taking tests, its not doing you any good xx

 

[vixie27]

Last Thursday I had some pink spotting.......well 2 tiny pink spots I just "knew" it was over, I "knew" I had lost my baby. I had red blood that night......defiantly over. I got booked in for a scan on Monday so had all weekend to wait. My symptoms went so again I knew I lost my baby.

Laid on the couch in Monday, my husband and I had decided on a d&c, stopping trying for 3 months, had grieved for our baby already and cried many tears. "There's your babies heartbeat" I almost fell off the couch!!!! I had a small bleed in my uterus. Tuesday shopping with a friend I started to gush blood and I mean really gush. Within 5 minutes my trousers were soaked down to my knees. I went and bought new underwear, trousers and pads and cleaned myself the best I could. I called the ward and spoke to the lady who scanned me the day before she said come straight down. I prepared myself for the bad news again just knowing my baby wouldn't survive a bleed like that but there's my bean all happy and heart beating away. I had a scan the next day too and my bean is still hanging in there. I was so convinced everytime it was over. Try to be as positive as you can. My gp hates cb conception indicators as he said every single test is different and they go on an average not every woman or pregnancy is average. STEP AWAY FROM THE TESTS!!!!!!!' XxxxX

 

[PinkPotions]

Thank you for all the replies unfortunately it did not end well for me.

CBD went to 3+ on we'd night which made me happy went into hospital on Thursday morning for first scan and got the bad news that the pregnancy was ectopic and growing in my ovary. They ran further bloods my levels were rising but not as much as they should. They called an ambulance to drive me 40mins to the nearest big hospital where I was taken in for surgery to remove it. I'm just out of hospital yesterday and words can't describe the pain I feel.

I just wish I knew why I lose every pregnancy. It feels so unfair but I guess life is like that. Good luck to all you ladies - I'm out but I'm praying for healthy pregnancies for all of you xxx

 

[elleff]

I am so sorry
I know there are no words to make it better. I genuinely hope you have your healthy baby in the future xx

 

[vixie27]

So so sorry for ur loss hun xx

 

[MamaTex]

Thank you for all the replies unfortunately it did not end well for me.

CBD went to 3+ on we'd night which made me happy went into hospital on Thursday morning for first scan and got the bad news that the pregnancy was ectopic and growing in my ovary. They ran further bloods my levels were rising but not as much as they should. They called an ambulance to drive me 40mins to the nearest big hospital where I was taken in for surgery to remove it. I'm just out of hospital yesterday and words can't describe the pain I feel.

I just wish I knew why I lose every pregnancy. It feels so unfair but I guess life is like that. Good luck to all you ladies - I'm out but I'm praying for healthy pregnancies for all of you xxx

It definitely is unfair and I am sorry you are going through this pain again. I thank you for your kind words, but I am hoping you will be on the other side sooner than later. I wish the best for you.