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LilMiss_91
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This will probably be fairly long, but if you've got a minute to read and reply I'd really appreciate it.
So I'll start by saying, I'm not the most social person ever. Back when I was at college a few years ago I had a fairly large group of friends but they've slowly dropped away, gone their own ways etc. I lost my very best friend (who is also my cousin) when his girlfriend basically turned him against me. I won't go into that, but let's just say I was heartbroken, we'd been closer than close since early childhood. I was left with very few friends after college, only about 4-5 proper ones. And now I only really have 2, I'll call them A (girl) and B (boy). B has only recently been back in my life after a few months staying with family in another part of the country but me and A have known each other for nearly 8yrs.
When I first found out I was pregnant, A was the only one who was there for me apart from my OH. She was very supportive and encouraging. But for the last month or so, her and B have become very close and B hasn't made any effort to speak to me for about 2 months. A doesn't seem bothered about seeing me unless she's having problems or wants to talk about her latest visit to see B (they are kind of seeing each other unofficially). She only ever asks pregnancy related things like how I'm feeling and how's the baby doing. She'll occasionally ask how me and OH are doing. It feels like that's all she seems to be able to think of to say to me, like my relationship and my pregnancy define who I am now. I also get the feeling that B doesn't get in contact anymore because I'm pregnant and "boring" now.
I just feel so sad because it's like I'm losing the last 2 friends I had and I can't just magic new ones out of thin air I've never been a big one for going out socialising but sometimes I think it would be quite nice to but I can't as I have no one to do it with. My OH never suggests it and besides, I don't know enough of his friends to really feel comfortable with them. I just get really down sometimes as OH goes to work and gets to at least have a chat and see some different people, he has a thing once a week he goes to with some friends. What do I have? When do I get to socialise with anyone? I don't I don't resent him for it, but I am jealous and I don't think he realises. On a daily basis I get to talk to him and my parents, A occasionally rings up when SHE wants a chat and I'll sometimes have a quick chat with my sister over facebook or text.
I feel so isolated. I'm only posting this here because I don"t have anyone in real life to tell I'm literally sat here crying because I feel so, SO lonely and I'm scared it's just going to get a million times worse after bubs is here.
So I'll start by saying, I'm not the most social person ever. Back when I was at college a few years ago I had a fairly large group of friends but they've slowly dropped away, gone their own ways etc. I lost my very best friend (who is also my cousin) when his girlfriend basically turned him against me. I won't go into that, but let's just say I was heartbroken, we'd been closer than close since early childhood. I was left with very few friends after college, only about 4-5 proper ones. And now I only really have 2, I'll call them A (girl) and B (boy). B has only recently been back in my life after a few months staying with family in another part of the country but me and A have known each other for nearly 8yrs.
When I first found out I was pregnant, A was the only one who was there for me apart from my OH. She was very supportive and encouraging. But for the last month or so, her and B have become very close and B hasn't made any effort to speak to me for about 2 months. A doesn't seem bothered about seeing me unless she's having problems or wants to talk about her latest visit to see B (they are kind of seeing each other unofficially). She only ever asks pregnancy related things like how I'm feeling and how's the baby doing. She'll occasionally ask how me and OH are doing. It feels like that's all she seems to be able to think of to say to me, like my relationship and my pregnancy define who I am now. I also get the feeling that B doesn't get in contact anymore because I'm pregnant and "boring" now.
I just feel so sad because it's like I'm losing the last 2 friends I had and I can't just magic new ones out of thin air I've never been a big one for going out socialising but sometimes I think it would be quite nice to but I can't as I have no one to do it with. My OH never suggests it and besides, I don't know enough of his friends to really feel comfortable with them. I just get really down sometimes as OH goes to work and gets to at least have a chat and see some different people, he has a thing once a week he goes to with some friends. What do I have? When do I get to socialise with anyone? I don't I don't resent him for it, but I am jealous and I don't think he realises. On a daily basis I get to talk to him and my parents, A occasionally rings up when SHE wants a chat and I'll sometimes have a quick chat with my sister over facebook or text.
I feel so isolated. I'm only posting this here because I don"t have anyone in real life to tell I'm literally sat here crying because I feel so, SO lonely and I'm scared it's just going to get a million times worse after bubs is here.