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whyme
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Hi everyone, sorry if this is long but am I being sensitive or is "she" being Insensitive?
I had my first day back at work since MMC on 8th Feb. ( I had popped in last week to " face everyone" and the people are really lovely - so it made it easier today).
Anyhow, one of the girls has been away for 6 weeks - seeing in-laws in pakistan. She has problems - can't conceive and is considering egg donation ( she was one of the people I felt would be hard to tell I was pregnant).
Mid morning she comes over to me and asks if I have been on holiday?! I said no and proceeded to tell her. She was very apologetic and I said, oh you weren't to know as you have been away blah blah, but it has been difficult etc -almost apologising to her!
She then went on to , she knows how I feel ( with respect, n you don't - you haven't lost a baby), that I must have been shocked to have been pregnant?!! ( er no - it was planned, what the hell is that supposed to mean) and that she has to live with this pain everyday!!! Then finally - well at least you have your son.I have no child. (ME ME ME!)
I was talking to my friend at lunch, and told her I was bit upset by the comments, made by the other girl - my friend then dropped the bombshell, that she had told the other girl about me as soon as she got to work, filled her in with what had happened and said that I didn't want to talk about it, it was my first day back etc!!! This really upset me even more that she had knew and of all things, asked had I been on holiday!!!!!
Anyhow, I couldn' let it go and when when it was just myself and the other girl in the office later, I confronted her - that she had known etc, so why not respect my wishes - she stuttered that she didn't really know what had happened, sorry etc, was bright red. I got really angry, how dare she. I know I am lucky that I have a son, but this was a baby in his/her own right and that I am grieving. It is only weeks ago for gods sake. She then ended up getting upset and trying to hug me - that she can't have any children, has family pressures, how sorry she was for me and that I have always been there for her blah blah and can I please forgive her, and that maybe I should go home!!!!!!!!!!! I was furious!
I just find it so insensitive, and to ask me have I been on a jolly holiday when she bloody knew, I think is sooo nasty. As she said we have all been there for her ( she is very open at work about her problems), but she cannot compare pain - it's not some competition, we have very different pain and it is not all about her.
Sorry ladies for those who have no children, I don't mean to offend anyone. I know I am very lucky to have my son - he has been a massive help in dealing with this loss and I know it would have been very different had I not had him, BUT, he is not a consolation prize, he doesn't lessen the pain of this baby - thats like saying to someone who loses a child, never mind at least you have another three!!!, never mind, you lost one parent, at least you have the other!
I had my first day back at work since MMC on 8th Feb. ( I had popped in last week to " face everyone" and the people are really lovely - so it made it easier today).
Anyhow, one of the girls has been away for 6 weeks - seeing in-laws in pakistan. She has problems - can't conceive and is considering egg donation ( she was one of the people I felt would be hard to tell I was pregnant).
Mid morning she comes over to me and asks if I have been on holiday?! I said no and proceeded to tell her. She was very apologetic and I said, oh you weren't to know as you have been away blah blah, but it has been difficult etc -almost apologising to her!
She then went on to , she knows how I feel ( with respect, n you don't - you haven't lost a baby), that I must have been shocked to have been pregnant?!! ( er no - it was planned, what the hell is that supposed to mean) and that she has to live with this pain everyday!!! Then finally - well at least you have your son.I have no child. (ME ME ME!)
I was talking to my friend at lunch, and told her I was bit upset by the comments, made by the other girl - my friend then dropped the bombshell, that she had told the other girl about me as soon as she got to work, filled her in with what had happened and said that I didn't want to talk about it, it was my first day back etc!!! This really upset me even more that she had knew and of all things, asked had I been on holiday!!!!!
Anyhow, I couldn' let it go and when when it was just myself and the other girl in the office later, I confronted her - that she had known etc, so why not respect my wishes - she stuttered that she didn't really know what had happened, sorry etc, was bright red. I got really angry, how dare she. I know I am lucky that I have a son, but this was a baby in his/her own right and that I am grieving. It is only weeks ago for gods sake. She then ended up getting upset and trying to hug me - that she can't have any children, has family pressures, how sorry she was for me and that I have always been there for her blah blah and can I please forgive her, and that maybe I should go home!!!!!!!!!!! I was furious!
I just find it so insensitive, and to ask me have I been on a jolly holiday when she bloody knew, I think is sooo nasty. As she said we have all been there for her ( she is very open at work about her problems), but she cannot compare pain - it's not some competition, we have very different pain and it is not all about her.
Sorry ladies for those who have no children, I don't mean to offend anyone. I know I am very lucky to have my son - he has been a massive help in dealing with this loss and I know it would have been very different had I not had him, BUT, he is not a consolation prize, he doesn't lessen the pain of this baby - thats like saying to someone who loses a child, never mind at least you have another three!!!, never mind, you lost one parent, at least you have the other!