First post here - may have affected me more than i thought ...

[stephwiggy]

Hi,

I am stephanie and i am a mum to Kieran who is nearly 4, we got pregnat very quicky after TTC in Dec 08 and miscarried in Feb 2009. I was 11 weeks, I was nearly at the "safe" 12 weeks. But i was aware that i had a grade 2 prolapse (cervix very low) so had to take it easy, this is due to a spinal cyst causing weakness in some muscles.

All was going well - I was just having a normal day and the dog started acting weird crying at me etc and i thought nothing of it well actually i sent her to bed as it was conatant...

Later that day when i went ot the loo i was bleeding not much but enough for me to worry and panic, but i had some bleeding with Kierans pregnancy, i have to admit this was different.

I called my husband home from work and he took me to the out of hours doctor i think (a bit of a blur) and we eneded up at the hospital and the did a blood test that looked good for levels etc and they said the could see some bleeding but the cervox was closed, and they even managed to do a scan!! I and the was the heartbeat !!! i cried we were ok, they sent us home and said if it gets worse etc to come back.

Within a few hours we were back with major pains like i have never known and clots, they agreed that it was a miscarrage and due to the pain they offed me to stay in the night and gave me a bed for th night, i cried all night litterally did not stop. the hospital were great and the offered me the operation which i took but first i went outside for a ciggerette??? and i phoned mum and a few friend not that anyone could understand me i was a blubbering mess.

I had the operation and left that evening, i went to bed for days and my little dog maggie stayed with me - she litterally did not leave my side and i cried for all this time.

The doctors were convinced i was gonna have a sodding beakdown or somethin as every time i saw them afterwards (see them often ref back probs) they asked how i cas coping etc, i got really annoyed one time and said FINE i am FINE and stormed out!!! not my brightest move.

Anyways we started normalising and decided a holiday was in order and we have been back for a few weeks and are TTC, but i still wonder what if and why and although and late on period this week dont think i wlll be able to trust!! another pregnacy - i am worried that all i will do is to check and be convinced it will all end the same.

well thats me so far i actually feel glad i have written this as i havent really told anyone else.

Thanks for reading

xxxxxxxxx

 

[Sovereign]

 

[ClaireyF]

sending you hugs hun! i went through a very similar thing last July when i lost our baby, we had and early scan and saw a hb and they told us that they thought it was twins but then a couple of days later i lost them i have never felt such pain, anger, hurt and i thought i was going to loose it! we were lucky and i got pg very quickly again and for the first 24w i was paranoid!! i kept checking whenever i felt damp or any type of discomfort. i hope that you get all the support you need on this website - its such a great place to be! xxxxx

 

[stephwiggy]

Thank you xxx I really hope we get a "sticky bean" this time xxxxxxx

 

[Jkelmum]

sorry for ur loss and i pray u get a sticky bean soon xxx

 

[orange-sox]

I'm so sorry you had to join us here, but we're a friendly bunch, and hopefully we'll be able to help you out on your journey to a sticky bean xxx

 

[borntobeamum]

Hi Stephanie, to mirror the coments above from orange-sox, and the other ladies, im so sorry that you are having to join us here, but I hope you get the same comfort I have from this forum.

Although we have all had slightly different expriences, we are all mums, whether we have them here and/or in heaven.

Your pup sounds great, its amazing what they pick up on, when I was preg with my 3 year old my dog at the time (passed away now), was sniffing about and kept lying on my belly and just "staring" at me, it wasnt until I discovered I was preg that I realised why, she knew before I did....

We are all here any time, even if its to "offload".. we have all done the "im fine scream" at some point.

Lauraxx