CrowBaby
Pregnant with Our Rainbow
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It took me a week to decide to post this, but I feel I really should. I am slowly healing, my heart is still broken, but I'm growing stronger slowly.
At 6 weeks, I went to my OBGYN because I had some light spotting. Ultrasound showed a fetus, right on schedule in size, but too small for a check of the heart rate. They wanted me to come back in 1 week.
At 7 weeks, the baby was right on target, heart beat was at 100bpm, and they wanted me to come back in 1 week to see if it would raise to 120bpm.
At 8 weeks, the ultrasound tech told me she could not find a heart beat and that I had lost my little miracle. I was alone that day, my husband thinking that nothing would be wrong and that I would be there long enough to hear the heart beat and go home. Neither of us thought we would be in this place. The doctor sat me down and explained that I was having a missed abortion and that I would need to decide how to proceed. My brain was numb, proceed? Proceed with what? He was nice and said that my body was not ending the pregnancy at this time and I had 3 options. I could wait and let my body deal with it, take medicine that would force me to miscarry or have the D and C. My heart was shattered. Driving home, I was numb. I couldn't get ahold of my husband at work and I could barely make myself get in the door of my house. When he finally texted me, all I could get out, was no heart beat. He made the trip home in 10 minutes, grabbing me as he entered the bedroom, crying with me. I had to explain everything and I told him that I didn't want surgery, but I didn't want to wait. I had decided on the medicine.
They gave me Crysol (I think thats the right spelling). I took it the next night. The doctor only gave me IBuprofen (HUGE MISTAKE). At midnight, I was begging my husband to kill me, I couldn't handle the pain. He walked me through the house for 2 hours until I finally passed out. I have decided that if this ever happens again, I'm going with the D and C.
That Thursday, they did a full exam, told me the baby had been passed and that my levels for HSG was 3000 to come back Monday for more blood work. Monday, my HSG was 154. I go back next week to check it one more time.
Thank you for listening.
At 6 weeks, I went to my OBGYN because I had some light spotting. Ultrasound showed a fetus, right on schedule in size, but too small for a check of the heart rate. They wanted me to come back in 1 week.
At 7 weeks, the baby was right on target, heart beat was at 100bpm, and they wanted me to come back in 1 week to see if it would raise to 120bpm.
At 8 weeks, the ultrasound tech told me she could not find a heart beat and that I had lost my little miracle. I was alone that day, my husband thinking that nothing would be wrong and that I would be there long enough to hear the heart beat and go home. Neither of us thought we would be in this place. The doctor sat me down and explained that I was having a missed abortion and that I would need to decide how to proceed. My brain was numb, proceed? Proceed with what? He was nice and said that my body was not ending the pregnancy at this time and I had 3 options. I could wait and let my body deal with it, take medicine that would force me to miscarry or have the D and C. My heart was shattered. Driving home, I was numb. I couldn't get ahold of my husband at work and I could barely make myself get in the door of my house. When he finally texted me, all I could get out, was no heart beat. He made the trip home in 10 minutes, grabbing me as he entered the bedroom, crying with me. I had to explain everything and I told him that I didn't want surgery, but I didn't want to wait. I had decided on the medicine.
They gave me Crysol (I think thats the right spelling). I took it the next night. The doctor only gave me IBuprofen (HUGE MISTAKE). At midnight, I was begging my husband to kill me, I couldn't handle the pain. He walked me through the house for 2 hours until I finally passed out. I have decided that if this ever happens again, I'm going with the D and C.
That Thursday, they did a full exam, told me the baby had been passed and that my levels for HSG was 3000 to come back Monday for more blood work. Monday, my HSG was 154. I go back next week to check it one more time.
Thank you for listening.