Goodbye x

[Sophe]

Good bye

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Just a message from me to say good bye to you. you've all be so lovely and helpful and I wish you all a BFP very soon.

I myself have decided to accept that I will never be a Mum, its hard to explain, but I know deep down in my heart of hearts that I won't be. I knew before we started TTC it wouldn't happen, I knew the clomid wouldn't work, I just feel nothing will work.

It just hit me all of a sudden, this is rubbish and actually I don't have to be part of this anymore. I will live a different life with other childless people and make the most of it. I am choosing to make myself unhappy and to suffer, and for what? Something that will never happen!

If you add all my time ttc up I actually fall in to the statistics of people who never fall pregnant, there is IVF yes, but its expensive and I can't face the dissapointment which will inevitably come with it.

I wonder what is wrong with me and i guess if I had all the money in the world I could find out, it must be something, maybe my eggs are the wrong shape or my tubes don't work quite right, who knows, but actually who cares, it won'ty change anything.

Thanks to everyone who has understood me, I have never met anyone really who has understood (apart from on this forum), people try to be nice but their advice just hurts and annoys me. I guess you all know how I feel because you feel the same way, and I'm really sorry for that.

I guess If I was to check back on here in 6 months to 1 years lots of you will be preggo by then, so it might be you... I hope that thought gives you some hope.

Have a nice Christmas, and good luck with your journeys.

Sophie
x

 

[cooch]

I messaged you in your journal xx

 

[LizMcD]

Ahh Sophe I'm so sorry you feel like that but I think you're being very brave and noble.

I wanted to wish you lots of luck and good wishes, for christmas and the future. I think you've been great on here and i feel really sad that you've made that decision, but only you can make it and you have to do what feels right for you.

Lots of love and luck
xx

 

[Armywife84]

Sophe,

I wish you weren't leaving..but I completely admire you for taking back your life from infertility. I'm also at the same point of wondering whether or not all this depression, anxiety, overall unhappiness is worth it. How many more years of torture do we have to endure? We don't have to be sad, but just accept our card that has been dealt to us and try our best to move on with our life. Instead of staying at this standstill.

If only I had half the courage you did. I'm still questioning if being a mother is right for me. It must not be because I can't get pregnant! Please tell me how you got to that point!

Lastly, thank you for being on LTTC forum, sharing your story, listening to mine (and others), any wonderful threads you started, and all your caring comments. I hope that you get your natural or even funding for IVF. But most of all I wish you inner peace on this new chapter in your life. I hope to hear back from you, in case you find yourself needing some support in your new life.

Good luck and the BEST of wishes (sad to see you go),

Jackie

 

[Deb111]

I don't know you, but came across this post and it really touched me. You come across as a very strong woman and I wish you lots of happiness for the future in whatever path your life takes.

It reminded me of a quote I once read

"Giving up doesn't mean you're weak; sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go."

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Oh hun I am sorry you are leaving but having read your post I can completely understand why Wishing you every hope and success in the future whatever you decide xxx

 

[wonderstars]

Good luck to you in your journey.

 

[NavyWife84]

I'm writing this on my phone so it will probably end up shorter than I would like it to be. Anyway, I just wanted to say that I will also miss you. You have been so supportive to me and so many other ladies on bnb. I know this was not an easy decision and you will have a bit of a grieving period, but I know you will be fine in the end. I am so sorry it hasn't happened for you. I hope your new path will bring you all the happiness in the world. I truely will miss talking with you.
jenn

 

[zanDark]

 

[Madgirl]

I dont know you either but I understand 110% how you feel. I am slowly going down the same path. I was happy at one point before all this ttc business. I hope that you get back to your happy place before all this ttc came into your life. I wont tell you to hold out for a miracle because when people tell me that now it just hurts too much. I have held out so long I cant do it anymore. I hope that your life transitions to a peaceful happy place very soon!

 

[blueeyedgirl1]

Sophe, we haven't really talked but you've been so supportive around here and we will all miss you.

I wish you so much luck in your future journey, whatever you decide to do and whatever happens.

*hug* I think you're very brave and envy your strength.

 

[tonibzac]

Completely understand your feelings Hun. I hope that maybe after a break you may feel ready to give it another go or that by moving on you will get an unplanned BFP. Best of luck Hun xxx