Heart is aching......

[natasja32]

Hey girls....hope you are all doing as well as can be expected. Its almost three months since we lost our little boy,and i miss him so much. It has gotten easier,but my sister in law just had her baby and im struggling with the fact that she got to take her baby home.I have this resentment towards her,altho i know its not her fault that my little boy died,i just cant help feeling that way. Does this make me an evil cow??? I dont want to feel this way,i just cant help it.

 

[orange-sox]

Oi! You are not evil, you are grieving

Of course it's difficult, but it'll start to get easier day by day... just take it one step at a time x

 

[babytots]

aww hunni you are not an evil cow like orange-sox's said your grieiving and its normal to feel like that.

i resent my next door neighbour so much she has a 15 week old baby (who was born the day before my 2nd angels due date ) and everytime i go in the back garden i hear him cry and she doesnt even pick him up just trys to settle him in his pram,carseat bouncer etc and i just think if that were my baby he would have as many cuddles i could give him iykwim. i find it too hard to stay out so come inside and turn the t.v up to drown out his crys.

we went over to see them a couple of days ago and everytime he cried i picked him up and he was fine giving me lots of smiles. made my heart melt but made me so sad as i should of had my baby there too or at least still be pg with jessica and looking forward to her arrival.

anyways sorry for babbling on just needed to let of steam somewhere! x

p.s i have just seen the pic of bodhi he is beautiful hunni such a perfect little angel! x

 

[borntobeamum]

I just have to say, this is the first I have read this original post, with the picture of your baby boy. Oh he is such a beutifull baby.

You are not evil, its only natural.

sending for you.

Lauraxxx

 

[catfromaus]

He is such a gorgeous baby. Sending you lots of love and hugs (and like everyone says, nothing evil about your thoughts, only normal!)

Cat
xxx

 

[xxCarolinexx]

Hi Natasja,

I can only imagine how you are feeling and how hard it is for you to cope with this on a daily basis I just wanted to leave a message to let you know that you are in my prayers.

Your little boy is absolutely beautiful and I'm sure he knows how much his mammy & daddy love and miss him. It's good that we can all keep his memory alive in this thread and I'm sure that even people who do not leave comments, are touched by your story and the picture of your little angel.

Massive hugs!! Take it one day at a time and don't hold back if you need to cry! Take care hun xxx