It's a very sad time for my husband and I. The last two days have been a nightmare and a learning experience.
We went to see our doctor in Richmond yesterday for our 12 week check-up. Sadly, we learned during the ultrasound that our baby had no heartbeat and had stopped growing at six weeks. It was very difficult for me to comprehend these words and how this was even possible. We had a "missed miscarriage" and didn't even know that was a thing.
We were so confused. I still felt very pregnant with all of the normal symptoms, fatigue, increased appetite, the hormones, breast soreness, and above all, a growing belly. We learned that even though the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks, my body did not expel the pregnancy tissue, and my belly continued to grow with the gestational sac. The placenta was still producing hormones since my body did not recognize the pregnancy loss. It was so hard to understand how I've been carrying my baby who didn't have a heartbeat for the last six weeks. It was six weeks ago that I had the initial ultrasound and heard my baby's heartbeat where everything was normal. Our doctor said that it happened shortly after that last ultrasound and that when this type of miscarriage occurs, it's usually due to chromosomal abnormalities that take place during fertilization. Still, it will always be a mystery to us.
As a result of all of this, I was scheduled for surgery today and underwent the d&c procedure since my body didn't expel the fetus on its own. I felt my baby was taken from me. My husband has been my rock and has stayed strong for me even though he's hurting just as much as I am. There's no physical pain. There's only an overwhelming emotional agony that we feel. We hadn't been trying to have a baby, but the news of being pregnant had changed our lives since the second we found out. I feel a huge void and want to wake up from this bad dream, but it's very real. As much as we are hurting, we know without a doubt, that this is God's plan for us, and that sometimes bad things happen for a greater good. It's for that reason that we know we'll be okay and move on to try again one day. We also want to say how sorry we are to all of those who have experienced this before or who will in the future. We know your pain. It is great loss.
We went to see our doctor in Richmond yesterday for our 12 week check-up. Sadly, we learned during the ultrasound that our baby had no heartbeat and had stopped growing at six weeks. It was very difficult for me to comprehend these words and how this was even possible. We had a "missed miscarriage" and didn't even know that was a thing.
We were so confused. I still felt very pregnant with all of the normal symptoms, fatigue, increased appetite, the hormones, breast soreness, and above all, a growing belly. We learned that even though the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks, my body did not expel the pregnancy tissue, and my belly continued to grow with the gestational sac. The placenta was still producing hormones since my body did not recognize the pregnancy loss. It was so hard to understand how I've been carrying my baby who didn't have a heartbeat for the last six weeks. It was six weeks ago that I had the initial ultrasound and heard my baby's heartbeat where everything was normal. Our doctor said that it happened shortly after that last ultrasound and that when this type of miscarriage occurs, it's usually due to chromosomal abnormalities that take place during fertilization. Still, it will always be a mystery to us.
As a result of all of this, I was scheduled for surgery today and underwent the d&c procedure since my body didn't expel the fetus on its own. I felt my baby was taken from me. My husband has been my rock and has stayed strong for me even though he's hurting just as much as I am. There's no physical pain. There's only an overwhelming emotional agony that we feel. We hadn't been trying to have a baby, but the news of being pregnant had changed our lives since the second we found out. I feel a huge void and want to wake up from this bad dream, but it's very real. As much as we are hurting, we know without a doubt, that this is God's plan for us, and that sometimes bad things happen for a greater good. It's for that reason that we know we'll be okay and move on to try again one day. We also want to say how sorry we are to all of those who have experienced this before or who will in the future. We know your pain. It is great loss.
