I live in the US. I am sure I will qualify for some benefits like food assistance and medical assistance, although I never wanted to have to go down that road. But I really worry about how I will find a place big enough for me and 5 kids that I can afford. I know this is a time when pride has to go out the window to provide for the kids but I don't want to sell them short either. I allowed myself to get in this situation and most of my family is sick of watching it and hearing about it because I have allowed it to go on for so long. I don't really have any friends to lean on for support because I moved to a town where his family lives but I know no one. And staying home with the little ones all day really makes it hard to get out and develop friendships. I feel so alone and scared but I cannot stay. I have NO money to my name and he took my debit card from me and deactivated it. (My name was never allowed to be put on his account, he still has his moms name on his account.) My cell phone is on his account and he frequently takes it from me, telling me that he bought it and he pays for it each month so it is his and I have no rights to it. I have already made arrangements with my dad to bring a trailer not this coming weekend but the next once, since my son will be out of school then and I will load up to move out then. But it scared the living s*** out of me to leave with no money and no idea where to get any money, job, daycare, home, etc. I plan on staying with my mom for a bit until I can get things straightened out but that isn't somewhere we can stay for long. I know none of you ladies can give me all the answers I need; I just don't know where else to find anyone to talk to about this because it is so embarrassing to admit to anyone. I am smart enough to not have let any of this get as bad as it has; I just kept telling myself I can stay and raise the babies and walk the line until they are grown and I can leave for me. Now I am in the worst position I could have imagined for myself and my kids.
