How i am feeling about LTTC!!!!!!!!

[jacky24]

Need i say more....

On friday eve me and Oh had the long chat about TTC... and i just couldn't hold back any longer...

* It makes me feel useless and like a huge failure
* Im scared of being dissapointed and hurt any further
* Im not sure how much longer i can be on fertility treatment till there is no more hope of a
* Will this come between me and OH with not knowing what and when????

So needless to say im tired and not enjoying TTC anymore... nor all the pills and tests and scans.... I want to see a baby grow not swollen ovaries!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[FEDup1981]

oh hun, was ur hubby understanding? xx

 

[x_Rainbow_x]

o hun it does take its toll on a relationship doesnt it but im sure your both string enough to work through it
massive hugs hunni

 

[NeyNey]

 

[jonnanne3]

I know what you mean. It does take a toll on you and your relationship. It seems that you and your DH have a good open line of communication and that helps when it comes to ttc. I too would love to see a baby growing on that scan verses a swollen overy! Good luck!

 

[chefamy1122]

ooooh sweetie

 

[twinkle]

Need i say more....

On friday eve me and Oh had the long chat about TTC... and i just couldn't hold back any longer...

* It makes me feel useless and like a huge failure
* Im scared of being dissapointed and hurt any further
* Im not sure how much longer i can be on fertility treatment till there is no more hope of a
* Will this come between me and OH with not knowing what and when????

So needless to say im tired and not enjoying TTC anymore... nor all the pills and tests and scans.... I want to see a baby grow not swollen ovaries!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi sweetie, i know exactly how you feel, i feel exactly the same...i feel so unattractive...like i am not a complete woman...i have been trying for 2 years now and in that time we have had 6 babies born in our office....and today another girl came and waved a scan photo under my nose!!! we will get our we just have to keep going...it aint over till the fat lady sings!!!

 

[HAYS]

its pure poo isnt it love??

Its putting a strain on me and DH at the mo, and its just all aload of pants!!

So sorry your feeling this way
xxxxxxxx

 

[jacky24]

The problem is OH is telling me to stop being so negative.... but im so use to BAD news all round why should i get all hyped up over all these amazing symptoms and then end up getting a ......

He said i was being selfish but that is trully how i feel.... but he still supports me no matter what so can't complain about him......

 

[HAYS]

Im the same hun with being negative, ive got nothing to be positive about!!!x

 

[jacky24]

Im the same hun with being negative, ive got nothing to be positive about!!!x

As you said... as when your negative it doesn't hurt as much when the shows as when you get your hopes up and all positive and you have this HUGE crash and BURN when the shows.....

 

[HAYS]

Exactly hun, spot on!

 

[wannabmum]

oh huni I understand how u feel, u get so used to get let down that it gets to the point u don't expect it to b anything else I know it doesn't help but I hope u get u soon..

xxx

 

[caline]

 

[jcriley2]

HI ladies I am new to the site and here is a little about my story! I have been trying to find a forum about ovarian drilling.

TTC 2004
PCOS
3 rounds of clomid up to 150
Test for tube blockage no problems
Went on to RE 2 IUI's one with Repronex no HCG and the second with Gonal-F with HCG with the result of
I left RE cant afford anymore cycles total cost was 6000.00 with meds..ooch!!
Went to a new OBGYN and she decided on putting me back on the pill for 6 months and got cycles back but no pregnancy, I dont think I ovulated.
Jan. 9, 2009 she did a DNC and ovarian drilling. OBGYN says my ovaries had a very white thick skin to it and probably was blocking my eggs from dropping. She put as many holes as she could. DNC and had some tissue she had to scrap but all in all looked good.
I had major pain going in to the recovery room...MORPHINEEEEEE !!!! I was moaning like in labor they say. If that is what labor feels like then I need pain meds with child birth. After about six shots I was fine and then onto reg darvocet and was fine. The recovery was a breeze except for my bell button.
I am having problems with my belly button incision healing, I think I dont do disovable stitches well, they keep coming out. I was up and about in 3 days. I didnt have any pains from the procedure, it was the gas pains in my shoulder. This was a pain in the butt. My shoulder was in so much pain for about 4 days. They say that the gas part can be the worst from the surgery well they were right.

ALL IN ALL I had my first period on Feb 1 2009 and it was a heavy, crampie period and had to see Doc and I stayed very heavy till I finished. Never had that before. I am on cd 25 and bd every other day this cycle and hoping something happened. If not I am going back on 100 clomid starting next cycle. The doctor seems to think that if its going to happen it happens in the first 6 months.

Any replies would great, any questions I am happy to answer. Need some support here I am freaking out and need support to help get to the



Thanks

 

[pixielou]

Hope yr feeling better
X

 

[nikdaz]

im new to this site so hope i do k!!!!!

me nd my oh have been tryin for 2 yrs with nothing nd it is reli stressful so i do feel for u we try not to argue but i get so stressed sum tyms i cnt help havin a go at him lol we will all get there sum day hopefully