I dont know how to feel about it ..

[aw1990]

I've had a rough few weeks, and i dont think i'm coping with it at all well,
it wasnt planned but i knew i was pregnant near enough since it happened (i knew with my first too)
so 2 week after i start testing i took 20 Internet cheepys in less than a week, all , on thurs i decided to do a tescos test as i used it with first and i'd believe it if it was still neg, to i do the test and it was neg, then i have another look and a line has apeared, i do the other one and a faint line also appears but after 9mins, so i think it could be an evap line, get a CB digital, and it came up not pregnant, so my emotions are all over the place, i go to bed, next morning i took the other CB digi, with midflow of first wee, and got my i was over the moon, but also worried about having a 21month age gap and i was planning to go to college in Aug, so had spent all day getting my head round the fact i was going to be a mum again, on sat i was in town shopping when i had bad period type pains, went to the loo and was bleeding, panicked i went straight to the hossie, after waiting for hours i was examined, i was diagnosed with a threatened MC, although my cervix was still closed so was a good sign, i was told to come back mon for a scan, so i stayed in bed over the weekend still bleeding quite a bit, and went back on the monday, had an internal scan, showed no sign of pregnancy in the womb, she said it could just be too early as i was testing Neg right up till thurs, so had a blood test and went home and waited for the results, the test showed my hormone levels had returned to normal and i had MC'd, since then, ive just been keeping really busy, i haven't cried at all, and am really struggling to come to terms with the fact i have lost my baby everyone keeps sayingi'm too young to have had two, it was for the best, ther would have been something wrong with the baby etc, and i think they are so cruel! how can my baby dying be for the best!

sorry its long, i just had to get it all out

 

[aw1990]

also i'm still bleeding .. how long should this take to stop?
tomorow will be day 6

 

[borntobeamum]

oh Sweety im so sorry you are having to go through this. Its never "for the best", ohh sending you so much hugs just now.

with regards to how long you bleed, I cant advise on this im afraid, as my circumstances were different.

I hope it settles soon for you.

 

[laurajo24]

I'm so sorry you've had to go through this. I also had a similar experience this week. absolutely devastating.

my dr said the bleeding could last anywhere between 7 and 10 days. i stopped after 4 so everyone is different.

I hope you've got someone to talk to about things. If not then i'm glad you're on B'n'B. I hadn't cried since in happened on sunday until today and I feel much better for getting it all out today.

By the way, Ellie-Mae is beautiful! I hope she is giving you lots of cuddles. I'm sure she'll get a little brother or sister to look after soon! (she has the same name as my step daughter!)

 

[aw1990]

Thank you for the kind words from both of you xx

Thank-you! she has been great, shes always so happy and smiley cheers me right up all the time! shes swear shes my guardian angel, she has given me so much strenth and gotten me thought so much, even while she was a tiny peanut in my tum, i love her more than words can describe x