I feel sooooooooooooooo sad today

[Hevz]

It should have been Thomas' 7th Birthday yesterday and I felt numb....very detached. I didn't want to go to cemetary either which made me feel guilty. Later on in the evening I was having loads of contractions which freaked me out too. Smudge is due in Feb just like Thomas was and it's all too similar, I couldn't have handled giving birth on the same day too


Today it's the anniversary of his death and I feel angry, confused, upset, lonely etc. I just wanna climb in a hole and wake up next week or something. I have 3 beautiful children and a wonderful hubby but feel detached from them today and just wanna wallow in self pity



I've sent hubby to the park with the kids and now feel like such a bad Mummy for needing time alone to feel sorry for myself. Shite, now I'm crying again

 

[WelshRose]

Oh honey, I really don't know what to say but didn't want to read and run.
I don't think you should feel guilty hun about not going to precious little Thomas' grave, he is with you always, wherever you are I'm sure he's watching over you and you don't need to be at his grave to think of him.
It must be so hard having Smudge's EDD close to Thomas' hun, but I'm sure everything will be ok
I would also like to say don't ever feel like a bad mummy for needing some time on your own.....we all need it sometimes
Keep your chin up sweetheart and take care xxxx

 

[Barneyboo]

Please dont feel bad, you are a wonderful mum there is nothing wrong in wanting a little time to yourself x x x x x

PS it was better for them to go to the park than see their lovely mummy upset

 

[Drazic<3]

Im so sorry to hear you are feeling like this. Please dont be too hard on yourself, its totally and completly understandable that you need some time for yourself. Look after you today, let hubby carry on taking the kids.

Do what you need to do to get throught today, dont feel bad or pressured by anything others might think. My love and thoughts are with you

 

[Hevz]

Thanks girls, I needed that reassurance. Spoke to hubby and we said we'll go to the grave and make it look pretty next week

 

[Rumpskin]

Thanks girls, I needed that reassurance. Spoke to hubby and we said we'll go to the grave and make it look pretty next week

Glad that you are feeling better Hevz. We all need time on our own to reflect, that does not ever make you a bad mummy xxx

 

[xXhayleyXx]

Needing time on your own is perfectly normal hunny and certainly does not make you a bad mummy in any way what so ever xx

 

[jo_79]

I really hope your feeling better about everything soon. You just do what you need to do, i also agree a trip to the park for the kids is better than them seeing you upset x

 

[honeybunch2k7]

Everybody needs time for themselves every now and then especially grieving moms. You are NOT bad mom. Plz try not to beat yourself up, this is a sensitive time for you. I can't imagine the pain.

 

[KKSARAH]

No your not a bad mum, never think that, you have done the right thing by not letting your kids see you upset.

Keep ya chin up Hun, thinking of you