I miscarried at 10wks :(

[Chalrhow]

I miscarried my precious baby yesterday... I'd been having scans nearly every week... a scan at around 6 weeks showed a heartbeat... a scan the following week showed no heartbeat and my final scan yesterday showed no heartbeat and no growth of the baby... I was also told yesterday that my uterus is tilted and she was having a hard time getting measurements... I was told to come back next week for another scan and i was given 3 options... I could wait and see if i miscarried.... I could have a D&C... Or i could have some pill which causes a miscarriage... I chose to wait and see coz i was still hoping and praying that they would be wrong and maybe my baby was ok... maybe that it was my tilted uterus... so i left hospital devastated but still in denial that i would lose this baby

After i got home yesterday from my scan i really didnt feel right... i started bleeding really really heavy... soaked 5 pads in an hour... I managed to get an emergency appointment at my doctors... and i decided to go for a quick shower before i left for my appointment... As I was getting in the bath i passed what i think was the baby... it was huge... well to me it was... cant think what to compare it to... about the size of a pair of folded socks... i freaked... i was in so much pain... it had all happened so fast... 1 hour ago i was fine... next min that... My doctor sent me straight to hospital... i was checked over... had an internal and was still passing clots... and begging for painkillers... Doctors wanted to admit me but i couldnt been scanned again till Monday which ment staying to monday... I couldnt... I reallly had no1 at all that could have my 2 kids... They were with my aunt, but she is over 70 and couldnt cope long with a very active toddler... So i had to discharge myself... they took blood to see what my hemoglobin is... They said they will contact me if its too low coz i lost quite a lot of blood... I've just gotta wait till monday now to get scanned and see if it was a complete miscarriage... which am pretty sure it was... am sure that was everything that came out... i managed to get it into a tub (i know it sounds disgusting) and its been sent to pathology... I had to sign a consent form for it to be tested... so hopefully i will get some answers... i also had the choice to get it cremated by the hospital or i could get it back and cremate/bury it myself... i said they should cremate it... but now im kinda regreting that and would like to bury it myself... but i suppose its too late now... i just keep thinking ive buried my pet budgies, hamster etc but not my baby...

Am still totally shocked at how fast things happened and still in a lot of pain... i was given painkillers (kapake) at the hospital but they dont seem to be doing much

Sorry if this post is so long... So devastated

 

[Vickie]

So sorry for your loss

 

[Nikkinoonoo]

So very sorry to hear your sad news xXx

 

[Sweetie]

Will be thinking of you. I'm sorry that you are going through this, I can't imagine how difficult it is. You will be in our thoughts.

 

[Rumpskin]

Oh darling, I am so sorry for your loss.

Sending you a huge hug lovely.

Please take care.

I too have an angel in heaven xx

 

[carmen]

i know how difficult it is ... sending you lots of hugs x

 

[Snowball]

Awww I'm so sorry hun Please don't feel bad that you left your baby at the hospital. We left our baby at the hospital this week as we just couldn't cope emotionally with taking him and burying him ourselves, it's to painful.

I'm so sorry you had to go through this hun

If you need to talk anytime, you know where I am.

 

[toot]

So sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers. We are all here for you.:

 

[jonnanne3]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers! Sending you bunches of

 

[doctordeesmrs]

so sorry

 

[tansey]

So sorry for your loss

 

[bethyb]

Hey hun,
im really really to sorry to hear your news.
I miscarried my precious baby on saturday.. I like you saw babys heatbeat at six weeks and six days (had a early scan as i also miscarried in Nov) but started spotting last thurs was allowed back for a emergancy scan and baby had stopped growing and had no heartbeat. I was going to go back for the tablet but miscarried last saturday at home. I started to bleed heavily and i could feel something i needed to push which i did and three huge clots came away followed by a clear sac which was my baby. I buried my baby at me and my fiances special beauty spot.( I had a eprc in Nov so it was much less traumatic for me last time..)
I have buried one baby and I havent another it doesnt mean I loved one more than the other it just happened and ur precious baby like mine is gone..
gone to a better place and hopefully one day when we old and gone we will get to hold them like we never did in this life.
In Nov they thought my pregnancy was molar so my baby was sent for tests so they could see if i needed treatment. that was awful but what we need to remember is they have gone, they have left sweets.
Im taking a day at a time and you should too, allow urself time to take it all in.
your in my prayers. pm anytime
cuddles xxx

 

[Dona]

I am just recovering from the same thing and know how your feeling right now. If you need a chat let me know - sending you lots of positive hugs xx

 

[niknaknat]

So very sorry chick

 

[Capuru]

Sorry about your loss.Your post was not to long you needed to let it all out and that's what you did

 

[Tiffers]

I am so sorry hun..

 

[nickyb]

so very sorry for you hun my prayers and thoughts are with you xx

 

[Faerie]

Not too long, I think it helps to write it down - I wish I'd known about this forum when I miscarried our baby, your post has me in floods of tears. We share your pain and we're all here for you xxx

 

[Chalrhow]

Thank you everyone for your kind words and hugs ... it did help a little to write it all down

 

[**angel**]

im so sorry for ur loss i also have an angel and it is heartbreaking xxxxx