I think its finally happened, I've lost hope :(

[wanna_bump]

30 months ttc with pcos, tried everything, soya, agnus castus, vitb-complex, metformin, lost weight, changed diet, his and her pregnacare vits nothings worked and still dont have my bfp ive ovulated a couple of times but af has always showed and now looks like ive got a LP defect too. A friend of mine was having fertility problems, then ov'd once and got her bfp...i was/am thrilled for her but now as more time is passing im beginning to feel resentful. Im just not sure how to go on, ttc is never away from my thoughts and its showing on my marriage. I feel stuck, cant give up, dont feel like i can go on x

 

[readyformore]

I've been ttc for 30 cycles too. 30 ovulations with millions of sperm hanging around and zero pregnancies. It almost seems incomprehensible at times.

My doctor told me that I have only a 5% chance of success. Oddly, it really did help me. The news was not good, but having someone admit that my situation isn't hopeful validated how I felt.

I'm looking for peace..........I hope you find it too.

 

[karenh]

30 months ttc with pcos, tried everything, soya, agnus castus, vitb-complex, metformin, lost weight, changed diet, his and her pregnacare vits nothings worked and still dont have my bfp ive ovulated a couple of times but af has always showed and now looks like ive got a LP defect too. A friend of mine was having fertility problems, then ov'd once and got her bfp...i was/am thrilled for her but now as more time is passing im beginning to feel resentful. Im just not sure how to go on, ttc is never away from my thoughts and its showing on my marriage. I feel stuck, cant give up, dont feel like i can go on x

You have definatley tried a lot, but have you tried clomid? It can help with the ovulation and LP issues. Something to look into if you want. Good luck.

 

[wanna_bump]

i've begun taking clomid this cycle, im hoping it will help me ovulate earlier as well as increase my LP x

 

[karenh]

I hope it helps. Good luck.

 

[wanna_bump]

thanks you've been ttc for over 5 years? How have you stayed sane?! lol x

 

[karenh]

Honestly I don't know. It has been really hard. DH and I have had issues because of it as well. However, I do know that God has a plan for me. Also, I love on my nephews as much as I can.

 

[Chatnoir]

Totally feel the same. Don't even know how I get up for work in the morning. Part of you wants to give up but you know you can't. Hubby and I hav started I think what's the point? We both do good jobs but not jobs we enjoy or picked, but we hav stuck it out as it means we have the money four mortgage etc. but what's the point if we can't have a family?? Might aswel be poor and do jobs we like if we just have to worry about the two of us.

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Big all round.

I have been blessed with two but lost both, so now we are facing the realisation that I may not be able to carry to term

At the beginning of the year I was ready to give up. People suggested a break and I thought 'how can I switch off from all this ingrained fertility stuff?' I knew that if I wasn't trying, I would be paranoid that this was my month and I was missing it

DH suffered an injury in June of this year and it has been so severe that TTC has actually been impossible - the universe intervened and forced me to take a break. At first it was awful, kept waking up to take my bbt, or turning down alcohol etc. Then, about two months ago something clicked. I gradually started having none TTC related thoughts, and now I get to focus on things that make me happy!

I've found some great crafting hobbies which really seem to help and I am throwing myself into work. I'm anxious to start trying again, but also dreading the way TTC will take over my life again!

 

[wanna_bump]

thanks for your replies. Im sorry to hear of you losses, It must be very difficult to build up to ttc again after that. I can totally relate to you fiesty, about you having a good time not thinking about ttc when you were on a break. When I had pcos 1st diagnosed, had no cycles and was waiting for appointments/scripts ect it was fun. bd'ing for fun, having a good time and not really thinking of it. Now ive got my cycles back its all i can think of - frustrating for my dh too.
Karen - i think God has a plan for me too...i just keep telling myself for one reason or another its not happening yet, but it will when the times right x

 

[Faith34]

Hi everyone, I've been reading ur posts and just thought I would tell u my story and hopefully u can get some hope / inspiration from it x dh and I have been ttc for over 3 years now, we were so frustrated and crushed every month when nothing happened, I've watched friends meet partners, get married and have there families all while weve been ttc and it sucks. Finally in January my doctor ( who thought I was just stressed and that's why I wasn't pregnant) referred us to the aru to see our fantastic consultant, after going through the usual tests it was discovered through an hsg test my tubes were blocked, I was gutted and came out heartbroken and sobbing. After a few days though I started to actually feel relieved that there was a problem and hopefully it could be fixed. I had a lap in march and after I'd recovered started relaxing a bit more, I wouldn't turn down nights out or drinks with friends which I sadly did fit a long time, how boring must I have been? In may I did a pregnancy test 2 days before I was due my period just because it was the only one left in the box, I did the test and got side tracked, 2 days later whilst getting ready for work I found the test and nearly fell over, it was my first ever bfp!!! We were over the moon, sadly though I mc at 6 weeks. So basically I too had turned into a ttc hermit who was so boring and downbeat and just when I had given up hope a little miricsl happened, hopefully it might happen again v soon??

 

[wanna_bump]

thanks you for sharing your story faith, im so sorry about your loss, it must have been so hard. miracles do happen and i hope you get another one soon x