emmys_james
TTC #1 Cycle 15
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Hey everyone,
Dont know if to post this here so sorry if its the wrong place.
i had a miscarriage in july last year. me and oh wasn't exactly trying it just happened and i got a bfp but then lost the baby at 9/10 weeks. we decided after that we really wanted a baby so we decided to ttc and have been trying ever since october last year.
since the m/c life has changed, i can't look at the tv, mags or be around children cos it upsets me and pains me inside that its taking so long and i'm worried i will never be able to get pregnant again, maybe that worry is the reason why i'm not getting preg, i just dont know.
in the last few months i've been having abdominal pain, i went to the docs they checked for infection but i was clear, so now they've sent me off to have a pelvic scan which i'm having this thursday and i'm so so scared of what the results come back with. i just hope if anything its something treatable and the reason why we haven't concieved. i use the CBFM, i'm in my second month of using it. i've been using opks over the last few months, so i know i'm ovulating. My period is normal and though i hate having af and would rather than anything in the world have a bump, i'm fortunute she comes cos some woman on here dont even have that, i've never ever missed a month. ive had my hormone levels checked and there fine. so i have no idea whats happening to me. i kno i should stop stressing and all that blaa blaa blaa but i just cant help it, ive tried to relax but i simply cant, the only thing that keeps me going through all this and i know this sounds stupid but the thought that theres IVF.
I'm having counselling to help me cope (as you can never forget ans get over it) with the emotions and stuff, and its all getting worse before it gets better. i just feel so alone, i really just dont know what to do anymore, i'm 18, as everyone keeps saying i should be fertlie mertile, but i'm not, i'm at my wits end, though people have been trying 3 to 8 years i dont know how they do it. sorry if this doesn't make any sense, i just wanted to get my feelings out.
Dont know if to post this here so sorry if its the wrong place.
i had a miscarriage in july last year. me and oh wasn't exactly trying it just happened and i got a bfp but then lost the baby at 9/10 weeks. we decided after that we really wanted a baby so we decided to ttc and have been trying ever since october last year.
since the m/c life has changed, i can't look at the tv, mags or be around children cos it upsets me and pains me inside that its taking so long and i'm worried i will never be able to get pregnant again, maybe that worry is the reason why i'm not getting preg, i just dont know.
in the last few months i've been having abdominal pain, i went to the docs they checked for infection but i was clear, so now they've sent me off to have a pelvic scan which i'm having this thursday and i'm so so scared of what the results come back with. i just hope if anything its something treatable and the reason why we haven't concieved. i use the CBFM, i'm in my second month of using it. i've been using opks over the last few months, so i know i'm ovulating. My period is normal and though i hate having af and would rather than anything in the world have a bump, i'm fortunute she comes cos some woman on here dont even have that, i've never ever missed a month. ive had my hormone levels checked and there fine. so i have no idea whats happening to me. i kno i should stop stressing and all that blaa blaa blaa but i just cant help it, ive tried to relax but i simply cant, the only thing that keeps me going through all this and i know this sounds stupid but the thought that theres IVF.
I'm having counselling to help me cope (as you can never forget ans get over it) with the emotions and stuff, and its all getting worse before it gets better. i just feel so alone, i really just dont know what to do anymore, i'm 18, as everyone keeps saying i should be fertlie mertile, but i'm not, i'm at my wits end, though people have been trying 3 to 8 years i dont know how they do it. sorry if this doesn't make any sense, i just wanted to get my feelings out.