lmac1
1 m/c starting clomid x 4
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Hi everyone, i'm new to all this but just needed somewhere to vent. After years of nothing happening, it was discovered that i do not ovulate and it was decided that i should try clomid, the fertilty drug. Feeling so excited i started to take the wonder pill and unbelievably i fell pregbabt the first month of taking it! I have never been happier or more excited in my life. I had been experiencing dull aches and lower back pain, very much like period pains, but after reading some of the pregnancy sights i was reassured that these feelings were perfectly normal. Three days after my pregnancy was confirmed Thursday 28th) i was wakened in the night with terrible stomach cramps and only very very slight staining. 24hr oncall doctor told me it was probably constipation, try lactulose and a hotwater bottle. by the next morning i was terrified so they agreed to see me at EPAS on sat 30th. They scanned me but could find nothing and after taking blood i was told my levels were only 13. Later that evening i started to bleed heavily and that as they say was that.
I was only six weeks pregnant but i have never felt so utterly cheated. I had only known for less than a week but already i felt different and i loved evry change in my body. It was long enough for us to become hyperactive with excitement, start picturing who baby would look like and to believe that finally, we were actually going to become parents.
I know these things happen, often in fact, but this doesn't make it any easier. My friends keep telling me my body mustn't have been ready, but i felt ready.
I have since found out that there is a fibroid in my womb, close to the lining and where my doctor cannot be sure if this had anything to do with the miscarriage i cannot help but panic. What if it happens again? What if i restart my treatment, fall again and history repeats itself. We so want a baby, but i am terrified that my sanity will dissolve as the time passes for fear of losing another baby. The urge to stand up and scream 'why me' is so strong and i know that's so selfish as so many other women have to deal with so much worse but right now i just want to hit something!
Does anyone have any history of taking clomid and miscarrying, is there a link? Any information will be greatly received.
I was only six weeks pregnant but i have never felt so utterly cheated. I had only known for less than a week but already i felt different and i loved evry change in my body. It was long enough for us to become hyperactive with excitement, start picturing who baby would look like and to believe that finally, we were actually going to become parents.
I know these things happen, often in fact, but this doesn't make it any easier. My friends keep telling me my body mustn't have been ready, but i felt ready.
I have since found out that there is a fibroid in my womb, close to the lining and where my doctor cannot be sure if this had anything to do with the miscarriage i cannot help but panic. What if it happens again? What if i restart my treatment, fall again and history repeats itself. We so want a baby, but i am terrified that my sanity will dissolve as the time passes for fear of losing another baby. The urge to stand up and scream 'why me' is so strong and i know that's so selfish as so many other women have to deal with so much worse but right now i just want to hit something!
Does anyone have any history of taking clomid and miscarrying, is there a link? Any information will be greatly received.
