I'm not coping too well with my EDD

[tillymum]

Tommorrow is my due date, and I reallly thought I'd cope ok, but i'm not , I just had to come home from town as I felt I was going to burst into tears or have a panic attack!!

A stupid tv add set me off yesterday, It's a new add (in UK) where they sing 'Happy Birthday' and there are all these new born babies with their parents, and it's really upset me. That should be me ....
I just feel so lost like I want to run away from it all....

I thought if I were pregnant by my due date i'll cope but instead i'm having my 1st AF after my most recent m/c last month and i'm desperate to try again, but i'm supposed to wait another month - I can't wait another month, and i'm going to chance trying again!!!

All I want right now is to hold my baby and to be a mum and all I can think of is the Consultant saying that I was most likely that my baby died because of my fibroid, so it's likely my baby was ok! I miss my baby .

 

[chanel]

Thanks for you post on my thread, as you know i am new to the board and new to pregnancy and miscarriage but just wanted to give you a

I am in the 'want to run away from it all' mood right now too or press the fast forward button to happier times.

Maybe we could just go into hibernation and come out in the spring time 5 months pregnant.

Take care of yourself x

 

[tillymum]

Thanks Chanel, I think that hibernation is a good idea!

 

[becky77]

oh hun it must be so awful for you , you have a good cry and do whatever you need to get through the next few weeks, i really hope you get your bfp with a nice sticky bean really soon.

 

[Sambatiki]

Awww tilly Ive yet to get to my EDD next month. Im worried about TBH. Have you thought of doing something to mark the day?? Im going to plant a rose bush, but you could do anything. BIG I hope that tomorrow goes as well as it can.

 

[JASMAK]

Perhaps you could do a few things for the EDD tomorrow. Have you named your baby? My m/c book says even if you lost your baby a few weeks into the pregnancy, they suggest naming your baby. Then you can have a little ceremony with a candle or plant a tree??? These are just some ideas to honour your wee one. EDD are very difficult. It is a big reminder of how different our lives could have been...

 

[Visqueen]

Im so sorry its mine on Thu so i know just how your feeling. I have seen the advert to and cant help thinking i wish that was me when it comes on.

I will be thinking about you tomorrow

 

[todteach]

What great ideas girls.

Sending you tillymum. I'll be thinking of you.

 

[tillymum]

Thanks for your kind words girls, I'm feeling so much better today. Got lots of hugs and lovely flowers from hubby yesterday and he was sad too which helped.

So I wrote a wee poem to remember my angel:
I write this to you, my angel
on the day you were due to be born.
I wish I could hold you in my arms
but sadly something went wrong.

I carried you inside me
for 14 precious weeks.
but I now carry you in my heart
since you fell asleep.

I will never forget you my angel
and I miss you everyday
and I hope that God will keep you safe
until we reunite one day. xxx

 

[x-amy-x]

 

[todteach]

Sending you extra

 

[honeybunch2k7]

Confronting EDDs after a loss is never fun.

I also want to run away. And I just wish everything would slow down for me. Just a little.

 

[Waiting2bMommy]

 

[Drazic<3]

Im so sorry for you loss.
Your poem is beautiful. I hope you find whatever if right for you to mark the day, even if you just take a day away from everything for you and grieve. If you want to talk to anyone, please PM me, ill always be a listening friend.
big big

 

[Wishfull]

That poem is beautiful. Glad your other half was there for you.

Take care an its normal to feel so sad around dates. Just wish we had our babies instead of sorrow.xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[xclairex]

that poem was lovely i no how u feel its very hard losing something we so badly want! im hear if u ever need a chat as are all the great girls on here take care sweetie x