thissucks..
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im 36 weeks pregnant and due august 5th (almost done thank fuck) im 17 got pregnant at 16 because im dumb and ive never regretted anything more in my life i had sex with my ex and was stupid drunk and so was he we went out for 9 months he had a girlfriend at the time aswell and i still did it knowing this..he was using me the whole time (nothing new...) and i found out christmas eve i didnt tell anyone other than 2 friends my sister and my cousin oh and obviously my ex for months my parents found out when i was over 20 weeks pregnant and i didnt even tell them my principal did after one of my "friends" or my sister told the school ive never been so ashamed in my life..i wanted an abortion and to be completly honest i still do but i couldnt do it after seeing my little boy on the scan..my ex and i dont get along and we never really did he was emotionally abusive when we were going out and sometimes even sexually..he doesnt know how to take no for an answer ive always been self conscious and was 5'5 and 49kg when i got pregnant ive gained 11kg and have never felt so disgusting never mind the horrid stretch marks that cover my entire stomach i look like ive been mauled by a bear im not happy why when talking about being pregnant does everyone refer to it as the happiest time of their lives when ts not ive never been so sad ashamed and alone in my life im so scared for the future i graduated highschool in may so i guess im doing good there but i havent gone to college ive no job no boyfriend and this little child will probably never have a family will never have his dad in his life never mind a father figure i feel guilty for keeping this child..for getting pregnant..my family is struggling as it is and im just making it worse im so ashamed of myself and my life is over and im only 17 i dont know why im posting all this because still no one knows im pregnant i guess i cant keep burying this down anymore and hiding in my bedroom under baggy jumpers.. i guess i just needed to get it all off my chest so if your reading this im sorry ![Cry :cry: :cry:](/styles/default/xenforo/smilies/cry.gif)
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