Is it okay to be upset now?

[aidensxmomma]

I apologize if this is in the wrong place; it just seemed the most appropriate area of the forum for this question.

So two days ago I was going through old pictures on my old phone. I came across pictures of a pregnancy test I took in August 2014. It was a faint, yet obvious positive. At the time, I didn't consider it positive and just went about things as normal. But now looking at the pictures along with posts from the forum I made and my period tracker app that I've been using for many years, it was definitely positive and I definitely had a miscarriage.

For some reason, this has hit me really hard. I don't understand how I didn't realize what was happening when it happened. It's been two years and now it seems so obvious to me. But I also feel really stupid for being upset about it now. There's a lot of conflicting emotions about it. My OH doesn't see it as a big deal and so now I'm questioning even more if I even have any reason to be upset.

Is it normal that I'm upset after realizing just now that I had a miscarriage two years ago? I feel so conflicted about it.

 

[Mearly12]

It doesn't matter if some one you cared for died 10 years ago, the day you find out it is fresh, and hurts. I think you have every right to grieve. Losing a life hurts, no matter how early it is.

 

[HelenJane]

Yes its normal. To realise you were pregnant and probably miscarried is a huge shock and a major thing for the brain to comprehend.
Please don't worry what other people think, what matters is how you feel in yourself. I have learnt this as I also worry what others think too much.
Take all the time you need to process this and grieve. Sorry for your loss

 

[Sweetkat]

It could have been a chemical. I had what I could have sworn was a positive earlier this year and then I got my period. I am not sure if the egg doesn't implant, or whether it does but then sth goes wrong early on.

You have every right to be upset!