Is it possible???

[BabyG2016]

Tomorrow will be two months since the miscarriage that took my baby from me began.

Two months.

It feels like it has been two years and two minutes all at once. Is it possible to have aged about 20 years in this time. I feel like I have.

While spending time with my family today, I realized that I mostly feel invisible. I feel empty and hollow. I thought I was doing better, but I am not. This horrible evil event in my life is not getting easier or "going away". I want to tear myself in two....one half to stay with my daughter and the other half to be holding my son in heaven.

Is it possible...
to really ever feel better?
to move forward?
for the pain and ache to go away?
to want to live after losing your baby?

 

[TTC First]

I would say what you are feeling is totally normal. Everyone reacts differently to this type of situation and each mc can be different for the same person.

I am sure that the pain and ache will go away when you are ready and you will be able to move on. Time will heal your wounds. Just remember that we all understand what you are going through, you are not alone.

 

[Lawes1987]

It hurts like a million shards of glass to the heart babe. I had my 3rd loss in April. But it DOES get better. You have to find a way that works for you to get through each day. Whether that's counselling, talking to your family and friends, alienation or the way that worked for me... I turned my loss dates and trauma into facts I could just say without emotional attachment and now I can talk about it and tell people how I feel without getting upset every time.

Its hard because a lot of people don't share their grief and you feel alone and its amazing when you start talking to people how many of them have been where you have been. You aren't alone, you don't have to set yourself a timescale or explain yourself to ANYONE. You deal with it your way and for as long as you need.