susan_1981
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And they've booked me in for Monday. They said I had 2 options, one being taking a tablet which will terminate the pregnancy but you have to stay in hospital all day, it can be quite painful and it doesn't always flush everything out, then I'd have to go back 2 weeks later for a scan to check it was all clear and I can't face the thought of seeing my stomach empty, or I can have a simple termination which I opted for. I've been through that before. All I had was mild cramps and bleeding for about 10 days and then my periods came back as normal and I was only in there for about 3 or 4 hours so hopefully it will be the same this time.
A lot of the girls who were in the waiting room were obviously having problems. There were lots of people crying. I managed to hold out until I saw the doctor then I couldn't stop. Then she said I needed to go down to a different part of the hospital to have a blood test, by which time I had mascara running all down my face. Bless the woman who took my blood, she clearly didn't know what to think and I couldn't make eye contact with her. I was sitting in the waiting room there and crying so hard. Everyone in there probably thought I was dying or something!
I asked the doctor if this was likely to happen again with my next pregnancy but she said miscarriage is unfortunately very common in the first 12 weeks and there is nothing to suggest it will happen again - it's usually just a chromosome problem which generally occurs from conception or something like that. I also asked if I would be entitled to an early scan if and when I next get pregnant but she said no, they only do that if you have had 3 or more miscarriages. She also asked me if I was on any medication and I told her that I was taking antibiotics for a urine infection. She asked what I had been prescribed and when I told her, she immediately said "how long have been taking those" and I could tell by her face that I shouldn't have been prescribed them particular ones. I've only been taking them since Monday though so I know that wasn't the cause.
And I remembered something my grandad said before he died. He said that the number 7 will haunt him until the day he dies. He had suffered so many tragedies in his life and all of them involved a number 7. His first wife died when she was 27 (this was during the second world war and she died of TB), his second wife died of scepticmia (she died on the 27th, not sure which month), his son also died when he was 7, and my 2aunties (his daughters) both died at the age of 47. My grandad died in July which is the 7th month and my baby died at 7 weeks so the curse of the number 7 is still going on! 7 is definitely not my lucky number!!
Anyway, I'm looking forward to Monday being over so I can move on and I know I will be fine from then. I'm just hoping and praying it doesn't happen again. I'm going to try not to obsess about TTC this time. I don't want to POAS every day as I don't want to find out I'm pregnant until as late as possible so it will make it easier to bear if this does happen again. I say that now but I'm sure I will start obsessing again but I really think I need to take a step back and relax.
Well here's to hoping 2009 brings me and Joe better luck and hopefully this time next year, I will have a little baby.
A lot of the girls who were in the waiting room were obviously having problems. There were lots of people crying. I managed to hold out until I saw the doctor then I couldn't stop. Then she said I needed to go down to a different part of the hospital to have a blood test, by which time I had mascara running all down my face. Bless the woman who took my blood, she clearly didn't know what to think and I couldn't make eye contact with her. I was sitting in the waiting room there and crying so hard. Everyone in there probably thought I was dying or something!
I asked the doctor if this was likely to happen again with my next pregnancy but she said miscarriage is unfortunately very common in the first 12 weeks and there is nothing to suggest it will happen again - it's usually just a chromosome problem which generally occurs from conception or something like that. I also asked if I would be entitled to an early scan if and when I next get pregnant but she said no, they only do that if you have had 3 or more miscarriages. She also asked me if I was on any medication and I told her that I was taking antibiotics for a urine infection. She asked what I had been prescribed and when I told her, she immediately said "how long have been taking those" and I could tell by her face that I shouldn't have been prescribed them particular ones. I've only been taking them since Monday though so I know that wasn't the cause.
And I remembered something my grandad said before he died. He said that the number 7 will haunt him until the day he dies. He had suffered so many tragedies in his life and all of them involved a number 7. His first wife died when she was 27 (this was during the second world war and she died of TB), his second wife died of scepticmia (she died on the 27th, not sure which month), his son also died when he was 7, and my 2aunties (his daughters) both died at the age of 47. My grandad died in July which is the 7th month and my baby died at 7 weeks so the curse of the number 7 is still going on! 7 is definitely not my lucky number!!
Anyway, I'm looking forward to Monday being over so I can move on and I know I will be fine from then. I'm just hoping and praying it doesn't happen again. I'm going to try not to obsess about TTC this time. I don't want to POAS every day as I don't want to find out I'm pregnant until as late as possible so it will make it easier to bear if this does happen again. I say that now but I'm sure I will start obsessing again but I really think I need to take a step back and relax.
Well here's to hoping 2009 brings me and Joe better luck and hopefully this time next year, I will have a little baby.
xx
