just needing to talk........

[hopefull85]

havent been on in awhile but really needed to get this out. i can keep holding my feelings in cause its not healthy. i am so depressed. it just seems like its not going to happen to me. 5 months ago i found out my sister in law was pregnant with her second child and she is also younger that me she is 22 im 26. im happy for her dont get me wrong. but it is so hard to be around her and keep a happy look on my face. i just want to cry everytime she talks about her pregnancy. i shouldnt be like that cause she deserves to be happy about it but i cant help it. i will be 30 in 3 years and thats all i keep thinking about. when is it going to be my turn. im not a bad person i do everything right. i dont smoke, drink, do drugs, i have a very clean home and im not rich but im not hurting for anything. im going to keep doing what i have to, to get my body straight but it just seems like its never going to happen.

 

[Skoer1360]

I think we all feel like that at times, I know I do. Especially when SIL announced her pregnancy (at 5 weeks!) to the family, it was all I could do to not cry into my dinnerplate.. I was happy for her, but hurt that it wasn't me because it was her first month and she caught Don't try and hold it in, we are always here for you! Have you talked to your dr maybe? Or just a friend that knows you're ltttc? I know that it helped me tremendously to accept how I felt and talk about it with someone rather than keep shoving it down and trying to fake it.

Sometimes you have to take care of yourself first