LoolaXx
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Hello lovely ladies :} just thought i'd introduce myself and explain my journey so far. My name's Louisa and i'm 19. In short, i haven't been on this forum for a long while since what happened before (which i'll explain further down) but for anyone who doesn't want to read an essay
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i'm currently trying for baby #1 with the absolute love of my life and it'd be lovely to speak to others in the same position!
So the longer part.. As a 16 year old, I thought i found 'the love' foolishly, and to my complete shock, found myself pregnant after a missed period. Our relationship was a mess, our families hated each other, he use to verbally and physically abuse me and i was scared out of my life for our unborn baby! but it was our doing, he/she didn't ask to be there, so we had to step up. Cutting a much longer story short, at 8 weeks I had a slight bleed which they scheduled me in for a scan 3 days later. Everything was fine, we even saw the outline of a TINY baby with a beating heart. I was overjoyed for the next 3/4 weeks until my 12 week scan, to find the baby had died. I had a mmc
I was heartbroken, angry, didn't understand why it had to happen to me. The baby had died just after my internal scan at 8 weeks, but i just didn't miscarry naturally so I then had a ERPC a few days later. It took me a long time to heal! That was nearly 4 years ago and a lot has happened since! Not long after I lost my angel, me and the 'idiot' (i could use many stronger words) went our separate ways. 2 years on from him, when I found myself to be a little more mature and understanding of life, I found my other half that i'm convinced is 'the one' this time. He's 22. From day one, he's provided for me, although i would love to pull my own weight he insists on being the man and providing for me is what he classes as his job. There's nothing he wouldn't do for me, and we feel ready to bring a child of our own into the world. I'm so excited to try, but also petrified. I'm convinced that EVERY 12 week scan i go to, i'll see the same as I saw last time. We started trying last month, did the 'baby dance' all around my fertile window. AF is due on wednesday so I couldn't help but do a cheeky test today which came back negative.. not too sure how to feel about it considering it's a bit early too test, or is it?! I've been taking conception support tablets which i obviously didn't take last time around as it was completely unplanned. Either way, it's only month #1 I guess! With regards to our age, I honestly think if you can be good parents and provide, then age isn't an issue. We really do know what we want, that isn't the 'clubbing' life, but it's the 'family' life and i honestly can't wait for my BFP!
xxx
haha i'm currently trying for baby #1 with the absolute love of my life and it'd be lovely to speak to others in the same position!So the longer part.. As a 16 year old, I thought i found 'the love' foolishly, and to my complete shock, found myself pregnant after a missed period. Our relationship was a mess, our families hated each other, he use to verbally and physically abuse me and i was scared out of my life for our unborn baby! but it was our doing, he/she didn't ask to be there, so we had to step up. Cutting a much longer story short, at 8 weeks I had a slight bleed which they scheduled me in for a scan 3 days later. Everything was fine, we even saw the outline of a TINY baby with a beating heart. I was overjoyed for the next 3/4 weeks until my 12 week scan, to find the baby had died. I had a mmc
I was heartbroken, angry, didn't understand why it had to happen to me. The baby had died just after my internal scan at 8 weeks, but i just didn't miscarry naturally so I then had a ERPC a few days later. It took me a long time to heal! That was nearly 4 years ago and a lot has happened since! Not long after I lost my angel, me and the 'idiot' (i could use many stronger words) went our separate ways. 2 years on from him, when I found myself to be a little more mature and understanding of life, I found my other half that i'm convinced is 'the one' this time. He's 22. From day one, he's provided for me, although i would love to pull my own weight he insists on being the man and providing for me is what he classes as his job. There's nothing he wouldn't do for me, and we feel ready to bring a child of our own into the world. I'm so excited to try, but also petrified. I'm convinced that EVERY 12 week scan i go to, i'll see the same as I saw last time. We started trying last month, did the 'baby dance' all around my fertile window. AF is due on wednesday so I couldn't help but do a cheeky test today which came back negative.. not too sure how to feel about it considering it's a bit early too test, or is it?! I've been taking conception support tablets which i obviously didn't take last time around as it was completely unplanned. Either way, it's only month #1 I guess! With regards to our age, I honestly think if you can be good parents and provide, then age isn't an issue. We really do know what we want, that isn't the 'clubbing' life, but it's the 'family' life and i honestly can't wait for my BFP! xxx 
