Keeping faith

[lissanae88]

One of the hardest things for me is keeping faith after having 3 miscarriages. I had my first one almost 3 1/2 years ago I was 12 weeks along and I never thought I would have more. I heard about women who had multiples but I never thought it would be me. Afterall my mom had carried 6 kids. Then not even a year later we lost our second one. I was about 6 weeks along. I thought my whole world had ended. I was ready to give up. My husband deployed and that gave me time to want to try again. Well when he got back we got pregnant and everything seemed like it was going to be good. I woke on the morning of our 3 year anniversary having the worst cramps that I had ever had. I was 14 1/2 weeks along and knew something wasn't right. I started bleeding a few minutes later and we went to the hospital. When I had found out that I had miscarried all I wanted to do was run, hide, scream at the top of my lungs how unfair it was. That was 7 months ago now and there are still days that I get up and just want to crawl back under the covers. I have friends and family who are expecting and it is the hardest thing in the world to not feel the jealousy that seems to come so naturally now. Then those days will come when no one but you remembers their significance and the pain that comes with it. I cant say that life gets easier because I haven't experienced it. I can say that keeping you faith gets harder.

 

[porkpie1981]

One of the hardest things for me is keeping faith after having 3 miscarriages. I had my first one almost 3 1/2 years ago I was 12 weeks along and I never thought I would have more. I heard about women who had multiples but I never thought it would be me. Afterall my mom had carried 6 kids. Then not even a year later we lost our second one. I was about 6 weeks along. I thought my whole world had ended. I was ready to give up. My husband deployed and that gave me time to want to try again. Well when he got back we got pregnant and everything seemed like it was going to be good. I woke on the morning of our 3 year anniversary having the worst cramps that I had ever had. I was 14 1/2 weeks along and knew something wasn't right. I started bleeding a few minutes later and we went to the hospital. When I had found out that I had miscarried all I wanted to do was run, hide, scream at the top of my lungs how unfair it was. That was 7 months ago now and there are still days that I get up and just want to crawl back under the covers. I have friends and family who are expecting and it is the hardest thing in the world to not feel the jealousy that seems to come so naturally now. Then those days will come when no one but you remembers their significance and the pain that comes with it. I cant say that life gets easier because I haven't experienced it. I can say that keeping you faith gets harder.

Ive only had one and it was awful so i cant imagine how u feel.

Are you getting any tests now that its been 3?

There is hope as i have 1 wee boy who is 2 and then a mc so i bet u will go on to have a healthy baby

 

[lauraperrysan]

Hi so sorry to hear of your losses. I have had 2 miscarriages now in the last 5 months, feeling very disheartened although I'm not going to give up, these things were sent to test us. I really hope you get a sticky one soon. Try to think positive although I know it can be hard.
Take care xxx