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SORRY!! This is super long and I definitely didn't expect it. It's kinda more for me to write down but of course you guys too 
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Well ladies, I first have to say that right now my poor baby boy is in NICU due to fluid in his lungs so I'm sitting at home right now with OH and without our baby boy
hardest thing I've had to go through but he will be okay it's just a matter of a couple of days then he'll be here with us!!!!!
Anyways it all started last week sometime (lol) when I first started having contractions and that lasted almost a whole week, every single day. Irregular contractions with pain but not enough to EVER be anything. It would always get worse at night too waking me up every hour and keeping me up making me wonder "Is this it?!" At LEAST a million times. To be honest, I would have MUCH rather gone into labor spontaneously one night and not have ANY signs or symptoms beforehand..Would've made life a bit easier! During this time at some point, I started loosing my plug. I was super excited at first until I was losing it every day and STILL nothing happening.
I went to my 38 wk appt on thursday july 26. I let them know I've been having contractions for a few days and I was loosing my plug so they checked me and I was pretty upset to know that I was only 1 cm :/ which, at that point, really is NOT bad at all lol I was just hoping for more to go on. So, cue more days with more contractions. Every day getting worse and worse but STILLLLL nothing happening.
Then on the 31st I noticed they were MUCH painful than usual but I could still walk and talk and do normal things through them so I thought this can't be it. Well, they were getting super close together around 5-10 mins apart (closer to 5 than to 10 but it varied) and as this was different then the past few days I thought okay maybe this is it lol. So off to the hospital we went just to make sure and sure enough I was having contractions and they were hurting pretty bad. Turns out they were 1.5-2 mins apart! Much closer than I thought but the monitor was picking up BH contractions too which I wasn't really counting. They checked me and I was 2 cm, 70% effaced with waters bulging. I was soooo happy that I was making progress and that the contractions/pain etc. wasn't all in my head lol. They gave me an hour to progress to see if they would admit me or send me home. As I was waiting I couldn't stop looking at the monitor lol and could just tell I wasn't staying bc my contractions started spacing apart and getting weaker. Sure enough, an hour later, we were sent home
I was pretty fed up at this point after days of contractions and just feeling like I wasn't getting anywhere bc I was progressing.
The next day, pretty much same thing happened. Except this was the day I had a partial bloody show and diarrhea so I thought OKAY this is it!!! Went to the hospital AGAIN this time by myself as OH was working and I didn't want him to come back unless I knew for sure it was it. The contractions were MUCH more painful than the day before I could barely handle it. Got checked and once again..2 cm. Waters weren't even bulging anymore!!! I didn't even know that could change lol. Got monitored, checked in an hour. Nothing. I was SO upset and the nurse could tell so she gave me some pain meds and said she would leave me another hour if I would like just to make sure. I was happy she was giving me another chance (LOL so to speak). OH got there eventually and we were actually there for another 2 hours..I honestly think they forgot about me lol!! Well, they checked me and surprise, surprise. No changes
Went home very upset at this point but I knew I had an appt the next day so I was actually hoping and praying he would offer an induction. Had contractions ALL NIGHT LONG and they were sooo bad I just laid there wondering how it was NOT it and if it wasn't it then how bad contractions could actually get. Well, the next morning around 7 am I was once again fooled. Even worse contractions. I was crying out in pain every single one, waking OH up and freaking him out. I thought, I am NOT going back to the hospital I will wait until 210pm for my appt. I got up and took a long hot shower hoping that would help the pain and it did and it even eased the contractions but not for very long. I knew I wouldn't make it to my appt in that pain so I called the drs office and asked if there was anyway I could get in earlier. They told me just to get ready and come up when I could and they would fit me in! I was sooo happy. So OH and I got there just to be told my insurance was inactive for WHATEVER reason!!! Trying to deal with that in between contractions was the WORST! ugh! Anyways, got that figured out and went to get checked. At this point contractions were a lot more mild. Dr checked me and I was 3 cm!!! 
I was sooo ecstatic to not hear 2 cm again. I probably would've ended up kicking him in the face SO he said well, you might just be going tonight! Then I just kinda half smiled and he could tell I wasn't convinced lol so he said and if you don't then we could induce you tomorrow at 9 am. My face lit up like a christmas tree lol. I was so happy that I FINALLY had a time and day to start this process and meeting my son!!!! I mentioned I wasn't feeling him move that much that day and that I tried eating ice (which works every time) and he did move but it was only a couple kicks. So he sent me upstairs to l&d to have a non stress test done. We went there and baby was fine, contractions were still irregular so I was sent home until my induction at 9 am.
OH and I decided to stay in town where our hospital was (we live about 20-30 mins away) just in case at my parents bc contractions were still getting worse. I told him, I will NOT go back to that place unless my water breaks. I will wait until 9 am to go back bc I don't know if I could handle being sent home again. He just agreed bc he was pretty sick of it as well lol. So we just relaxed and hung out at my moms all day. Watched netflix and I slept while he played games with my brother. The evening came around and the family just ate dinner and started playing games again..around 7 or 8 I'd say. My contractions started back up again (the usual time lol) and I could tell they were worse ONCE again. At first they were pretty spaced apart then getting closer and closer but then spacing out again. At a few points they were 2-3 mins apart and super intense but I said NOPE I'm staying home I am not leaving. I tried SO hard to go to sleep around 10 but I was kidding myself. There was now way in hell I would be able to sleep through that shit, it was INTENSE! around 11 I was once again crying out in pain every time a contraction hit and dreading each and every one. Eventually my mom came out in the living room and was watching me and started (Secretly) timing them bc she knew I would not go back lol. After a while she said Maria, you HAVE to go back up there. They're about a minute apart and you are in way too much pain. Even though I was so against going, I knew she was right. they were unbelievably close together and the most intense I have ever felt. I thought theres no way I haven't progressed at all.
SOOOO off to the hospital we went again. On the ride there I was thinking thank GOD my mom made me go and just wishing we could get there faster for some pain relief lol. We got to the hospital once AGAIN. Got hooked up on the monitor and they checked me once. I was 4.5-5 cm and 90% effaced!!!!!!! :shocked: I was shocked. AND happy. I almost labored half way through by myself lol! They got an IV started and said dr isn't going to send you home now anyways and gave me some pain meds. My labor FINALLY started.
To be honest, my labor was pretty uneventful!!! I labored all night and the pain was completly bearable with the pain meds, I could still feel the contractions but it was easy peasy stuff lol! so my mom, grandma, OH, OH's grandma, and my 2 best friends just chilled in the room and hung out lol. I couldn't sleep at ALL though. I would drift off here and there for 15-20 mins but my adrenaline was going and the contractions were still keeping me awake. Around 730 I was checked and I was only 5!
I was pretty upset but I had a feeling I didn't progress much. So they said dr would be in around 8 or so then at that point he'll break my waters. He came in around 815 to do just that. It was completly painless it was absolutley nothing lol. Just felt like an internal exam with a gush of water lol. I didn't have much though 
I then asked for an epidural even though my contractions were bearable I knew they would be getting stronger and I wanted to try to get some sleep. So around 9 am I got my epidural and that wasn't anything either. Didn't feel a thing! My legs started getting numb but, nothing I couldn't handle. What I wouldn't be able to handle is if I couldn't feel them at ALL or couldn't move them by myself, which I could 
around 11/1130ish I got checked again and this time I was a 6. Which STILL wasn't much but it was a bit of progress at least lol. Sometime around this point I randomly threw up which was out of the blue! I felt completely fine the whole time it just kinda hit me out of nowhere. Anyways, they also gave me a liiiittle bit of pitocin as I wasn't dilating quick enough. I was hesitant but I gave them the go ahead.
At this point things were pretty uneventful, getting checked here and there and progressing pretty good. I noticed my epidural was wearing off and started feeling contractions again but it wasn't TOO bad. They wouldn't give me anymore epidural but they gave me the other pain meds again and it helped quite a bit. I was pretty happy they didn't give me anymore epidural bc at around 2pm I started feeling like I wanted to push. She checked me and I was around 9.5 cm with just a little bit of cervix left. I was kinda frustrated at this point bc the urge to push was pretty intense and I just wanted to DO it!!! Eventually I got to 10 and the nurse finally started letting me push. And that's what I did with all my might and every single ounce of strength I had. She kept saying how good of a pusher I was and she couldn't even believe how strong I was. Idk if she was just saying that but it made me feel good and gave me more strength to push lol. I pushed for about a half an hour and I was already feeling tired and frustrated and it was getting unbelieveably intense!!!! I was falling asleep in between contractions bc I was getting so exhausted lol even having mini dreams until I felt the need to push again. I was thinking am I seriously falling asleep right now?! It was the weirdest thing!! Dr was taking FOREVER to get in the room and by time he did I was in full swing of pushing. I just wanted it to be DONE and over with. I was getting SO TIRED I just didn't know if I could do it. Dr was pulling me apart literally trying to help guide his head out and it was EXCRUCIATING...not even pain wise just an unbelivable amount of discomfort is the best was to explain it lol. I started screaming and hollering, saying I couldn't do it anymore and almost started hyperventilating but kept reminding myself NO NO NO you HAVE to do this no turning back just get it done and over with. So I started taking deep breathes and concentrating again. Every push I pushed with every single thing I had. I tried fitting 3 pushes in one contraction one after another. Just getting it done and over with! At one point they brought the mirror and I have to admit, I'm not sure if I could have done it without it!!!! it helped a million times over. I could see my little boys FULL head of hair and it helped me to see how to actually push and what kind of pushes were working and which ones weren't. I could tell it was getting closer and closer but at some points his head would go back in a little bit and that was so frustrating BUT gave me more strength to get it done. I finally got his head out then ONE shoulder and his other one started to get stuck
Dr got it all figured out though then before I knew it I felt his body slide right out and right onto me. 
best feeling ever. I have never felt so much relief in my life!!!! I just kept rubbing his cheek, crying but no tears bc I was so unbelievably overwhelmed. I just kept saying he's so perfect he's so perfect!! OH said he'll never forget that moment, my reaction to our son being born. and I will never ever forget that either bc it was the best moment of my LIFE!!!!!! UGH just about getting teary eyed thinking about it!!!!!!!!!! Isaiah Dean was born at 4:31 pm 8 lbs 4 oz and 21 inches tall! I'm a 5'2 woman who originally weighed 120 lbs so everyone was very surprised at how big he was and that I could actually do it!! I had to prove everyone wrong He is the LIGHT of my life and on my mind 24/7. Breastfeeding like a CHAMP and I was one of the girls who were on the line of formula and breastfeeding. Didn't feel like I had the determination to BF but since he loves the boobs SO much and latches SO good I'm more determined than ever to give my baby boy whatever he wants!!!
Unfortunetley, the next day the dr realized he was breathing MUCH faster than he should be so they ran some test and did some xrays. Turns out he has fluid in his lungs so my baby had to be hooked up to an IV to get some antibiotics and then today he had to be transferred to a bigger hospital to get some more tests done He doesn't need oxygen or anythign and everything else is perfect but they have to rule every single thing out and all the tests take at least 48 hrs so he stays there until then We're sitting at home WITHOUT our baby and it's the hardest thing in the world!! I just want him home, in our arms right now like he should be!! But I know it's for the best and he's in great hands..one of the best hospitals he could be at.
WELL. That's it ladies. The day (and days leading up lol) the love of my life was born. We couldn't be more in love 
PICS PICS!!!
Enjoy Well ladies, I first have to say that right now my poor baby boy is in NICU due to fluid in his lungs so I'm sitting at home right now with OH and without our baby boy
hardest thing I've had to go through but he will be okay it's just a matter of a couple of days then he'll be here with us!!!!!Anyways it all started last week sometime (lol) when I first started having contractions and that lasted almost a whole week, every single day. Irregular contractions with pain but not enough to EVER be anything. It would always get worse at night too waking me up every hour and keeping me up making me wonder "Is this it?!" At LEAST a million times. To be honest, I would have MUCH rather gone into labor spontaneously one night and not have ANY signs or symptoms beforehand..Would've made life a bit easier! During this time at some point, I started loosing my plug. I was super excited at first until I was losing it every day and STILL nothing happening.
I went to my 38 wk appt on thursday july 26. I let them know I've been having contractions for a few days and I was loosing my plug so they checked me and I was pretty upset to know that I was only 1 cm :/ which, at that point, really is NOT bad at all lol I was just hoping for more to go on. So, cue more days with more contractions. Every day getting worse and worse but STILLLLL nothing happening.
Then on the 31st I noticed they were MUCH painful than usual but I could still walk and talk and do normal things through them so I thought this can't be it. Well, they were getting super close together around 5-10 mins apart (closer to 5 than to 10 but it varied) and as this was different then the past few days I thought okay maybe this is it lol. So off to the hospital we went just to make sure and sure enough I was having contractions and they were hurting pretty bad. Turns out they were 1.5-2 mins apart! Much closer than I thought but the monitor was picking up BH contractions too which I wasn't really counting. They checked me and I was 2 cm, 70% effaced with waters bulging. I was soooo happy that I was making progress and that the contractions/pain etc. wasn't all in my head lol. They gave me an hour to progress to see if they would admit me or send me home. As I was waiting I couldn't stop looking at the monitor lol and could just tell I wasn't staying bc my contractions started spacing apart and getting weaker. Sure enough, an hour later, we were sent home
I was pretty fed up at this point after days of contractions and just feeling like I wasn't getting anywhere bc I was progressing.The next day, pretty much same thing happened. Except this was the day I had a partial bloody show and diarrhea so I thought OKAY this is it!!! Went to the hospital AGAIN this time by myself as OH was working and I didn't want him to come back unless I knew for sure it was it. The contractions were MUCH more painful than the day before I could barely handle it. Got checked and once again..2 cm. Waters weren't even bulging anymore!!! I didn't even know that could change lol. Got monitored, checked in an hour. Nothing. I was SO upset and the nurse could tell so she gave me some pain meds and said she would leave me another hour if I would like just to make sure. I was happy she was giving me another chance (LOL so to speak). OH got there eventually and we were actually there for another 2 hours..I honestly think they forgot about me lol!! Well, they checked me and surprise, surprise. No changes
Went home very upset at this point but I knew I had an appt the next day so I was actually hoping and praying he would offer an induction. Had contractions ALL NIGHT LONG and they were sooo bad I just laid there wondering how it was NOT it and if it wasn't it then how bad contractions could actually get. Well, the next morning around 7 am I was once again fooled. Even worse contractions. I was crying out in pain every single one, waking OH up and freaking him out. I thought, I am NOT going back to the hospital I will wait until 210pm for my appt. I got up and took a long hot shower hoping that would help the pain and it did and it even eased the contractions but not for very long. I knew I wouldn't make it to my appt in that pain so I called the drs office and asked if there was anyway I could get in earlier. They told me just to get ready and come up when I could and they would fit me in! I was sooo happy. So OH and I got there just to be told my insurance was inactive for WHATEVER reason!!!
Trying to deal with that in between contractions was the WORST! ugh! Anyways, got that figured out and went to get checked. At this point contractions were a lot more mild. Dr checked me and I was 3 cm!!! I was sooo ecstatic to not hear 2 cm again. I probably would've ended up kicking him in the face SO he said well, you might just be going tonight! Then I just kinda half smiled and he could tell I wasn't convinced lol so he said and if you don't then we could induce you tomorrow at 9 am. My face lit up like a christmas tree lol. I was so happy that I FINALLY had a time and day to start this process and meeting my son!!!! I mentioned I wasn't feeling him move that much that day and that I tried eating ice (which works every time) and he did move but it was only a couple kicks. So he sent me upstairs to l&d to have a non stress test done. We went there and baby was fine, contractions were still irregular so I was sent home until my induction at 9 am. OH and I decided to stay in town where our hospital was (we live about 20-30 mins away) just in case at my parents bc contractions were still getting worse. I told him, I will NOT go back to that place unless my water breaks. I will wait until 9 am to go back bc I don't know if I could handle being sent home again. He just agreed bc he was pretty sick of it as well lol. So we just relaxed and hung out at my moms all day. Watched netflix and I slept while he played games with my brother. The evening came around and the family just ate dinner and started playing games again..around 7 or 8 I'd say. My contractions started back up again (the usual time lol) and I could tell they were worse ONCE again. At first they were pretty spaced apart then getting closer and closer but then spacing out again. At a few points they were 2-3 mins apart and super intense but I said NOPE I'm staying home I am not leaving. I tried SO hard to go to sleep around 10 but I was kidding myself. There was now way in hell I would be able to sleep through that shit, it was INTENSE! around 11 I was once again crying out in pain every time a contraction hit and dreading each and every one. Eventually my mom came out in the living room and was watching me and started (Secretly) timing them bc she knew I would not go back lol. After a while she said Maria, you HAVE to go back up there. They're about a minute apart and you are in way too much pain. Even though I was so against going, I knew she was right. they were unbelievably close together and the most intense I have ever felt. I thought theres no way I haven't progressed at all.
SOOOO off to the hospital we went again. On the ride there I was thinking thank GOD my mom made me go and just wishing we could get there faster for some pain relief lol. We got to the hospital once AGAIN. Got hooked up on the monitor and they checked me once. I was 4.5-5 cm and 90% effaced!!!!!!! :shocked: I was shocked. AND happy. I almost labored half way through by myself lol! They got an IV started and said dr isn't going to send you home now anyways and gave me some pain meds. My labor FINALLY started.
To be honest, my labor was pretty uneventful!!! I labored all night and the pain was completly bearable with the pain meds, I could still feel the contractions but it was easy peasy stuff lol! so my mom, grandma, OH, OH's grandma, and my 2 best friends just chilled in the room and hung out lol. I couldn't sleep at ALL though. I would drift off here and there for 15-20 mins but my adrenaline was going and the contractions were still keeping me awake. Around 730 I was checked and I was only 5!
I was pretty upset but I had a feeling I didn't progress much. So they said dr would be in around 8 or so then at that point he'll break my waters. He came in around 815 to do just that. It was completly painless it was absolutley nothing lol. Just felt like an internal exam with a gush of water lol. I didn't have much though I then asked for an epidural even though my contractions were bearable I knew they would be getting stronger and I wanted to try to get some sleep. So around 9 am I got my epidural and that wasn't anything either. Didn't feel a thing! My legs started getting numb but, nothing I couldn't handle. What I wouldn't be able to handle is if I couldn't feel them at ALL or couldn't move them by myself, which I could around 11/1130ish I got checked again and this time I was a 6. Which STILL wasn't much but it was a bit of progress at least lol. Sometime around this point I randomly threw up which was out of the blue! I felt completely fine the whole time it just kinda hit me out of nowhere. Anyways, they also gave me a liiiittle bit of pitocin as I wasn't dilating quick enough. I was hesitant but I gave them the go ahead. At this point things were pretty uneventful, getting checked here and there and progressing pretty good. I noticed my epidural was wearing off and started feeling contractions again but it wasn't TOO bad. They wouldn't give me anymore epidural but they gave me the other pain meds again and it helped quite a bit. I was pretty happy they didn't give me anymore epidural bc at around 2pm I started feeling like I wanted to push. She checked me and I was around 9.5 cm with just a little bit of cervix left. I was kinda frustrated at this point bc the urge to push was pretty intense and I just wanted to DO it!!! Eventually I got to 10 and the nurse finally started letting me push. And that's what I did with all my might and every single ounce of strength I had. She kept saying how good of a pusher I was and she couldn't even believe how strong I was. Idk if she was just saying that but it made me feel good and gave me more strength to push lol. I pushed for about a half an hour and I was already feeling tired and frustrated and it was getting unbelieveably intense!!!! I was falling asleep in between contractions bc I was getting so exhausted lol even having mini dreams until I felt the need to push again. I was thinking am I seriously falling asleep right now?! It was the weirdest thing!! Dr was taking FOREVER to get in the room and by time he did I was in full swing of pushing. I just wanted it to be DONE and over with. I was getting SO TIRED I just didn't know if I could do it. Dr was pulling me apart literally trying to help guide his head out and it was EXCRUCIATING...not even pain wise just an unbelivable amount of discomfort is the best was to explain it lol. I started screaming and hollering, saying I couldn't do it anymore and almost started hyperventilating but kept reminding myself NO NO NO you HAVE to do this no turning back just get it done and over with. So I started taking deep breathes and concentrating again. Every push I pushed with every single thing I had. I tried fitting 3 pushes in one contraction one after another. Just getting it done and over with! At one point they brought the mirror and I have to admit, I'm not sure if I could have done it without it!!!! it helped a million times over. I could see my little boys FULL head of hair and it helped me to see how to actually push and what kind of pushes were working and which ones weren't. I could tell it was getting closer and closer but at some points his head would go back in a little bit and that was so frustrating BUT gave me more strength to get it done. I finally got his head out then ONE shoulder and his other one started to get stuck
Dr got it all figured out though then before I knew it I felt his body slide right out and right onto me. best feeling ever. I have never felt so much relief in my life!!!! I just kept rubbing his cheek, crying but no tears bc I was so unbelievably overwhelmed. I just kept saying he's so perfect he's so perfect!! OH said he'll never forget that moment, my reaction to our son being born. and I will never ever forget that either bc it was the best moment of my LIFE!!!!!! UGH just about getting teary eyed thinking about it!!!!!!!!!! Isaiah Dean was born at 4:31 pm 8 lbs 4 oz and 21 inches tall! I'm a 5'2 woman who originally weighed 120 lbs so everyone was very surprised at how big he was and that I could actually do it!! I had to prove everyone wrong He is the LIGHT of my life and on my mind 24/7. Breastfeeding like a CHAMP and I was one of the girls who were on the line of formula and breastfeeding. Didn't feel like I had the determination to BF but since he loves the boobs SO much and latches SO good I'm more determined than ever to give my baby boy whatever he wants!!! Unfortunetley, the next day the dr realized he was breathing MUCH faster than he should be so they ran some test and did some xrays. Turns out he has fluid in his lungs so my baby had to be hooked up to an IV to get some antibiotics and then today he had to be transferred to a bigger hospital to get some more tests done
He doesn't need oxygen or anythign and everything else is perfect but they have to rule every single thing out and all the tests take at least 48 hrs so he stays there until then We're sitting at home WITHOUT our baby and it's the hardest thing in the world!! I just want him home, in our arms right now like he should be!! But I know it's for the best and he's in great hands..one of the best hospitals he could be at. WELL. That's it ladies. The day (and days leading up lol) the love of my life was born. We couldn't be more in love
PICS PICS!!!
