Late but bfn. So difficult, how to carry on?

[Lawhra]

My af is due today and hasn't shown. I've had cramps since Monday, usually only the day before or on the day I get cramps. It feels like my body is mocking me
I did a test about 20 mins ago and I thought it would be and held out as long as I could but it got the better of me! It's so disheartening to see.
I keep wondering how much more I can take. How do I stay possitive?
I conceived my son in 10 months. So three years of trying for baby number two with, so far, no reason for my infertility, is quite a shock.

 

[Lawhra]

Oh, and ignore the ticker, it's going on it's merry way even though it's not day one as it should be!
In a way I wish it was day 1. Then i'd be on track for the next cycle

 

[HAYS]

Sucks hun, frustrating i know! I guess give it a couple more days?x

 

[Lawhra]

Thank you, I see you know what i'm going through. I love your sig, it makes me giggle because I think "I know exactly how you feel!!"
I too suffer IBS, but mainly around time of af.

I will wait a couple of days, but know af will show. I can deal with it better when it's on time.
Oh well, same old crap just a different month eh.

 

[HAYS]

Hard to stay positive isnt it?!!! sometimes you just want her to show her ugly face and then you can start again!!!

x

 

[Lawhra]

Yeah it is hard! I get the thoughts that it'll never happen and I've even thought about getting hypnotised to forget feeling broody! Hahaha. This ttc malarky is turning me doolally.
Although i'm accutely aware of how very fortunate I am to have my beautifull son, so sometimes feel bad for moaning. But man, the feeling of wanting a baby is so overwhelming isn't it.

 

[HAYS]

yup certainly is!!! and ttc has already sent me dooooolally flip!

x

 

[renee_xx]

well it's not over til she shows!!
I try to prepare myself every month to be negative - this way, i'm not setting myself up for disappointment every month, and I take the tests knowing they will be negative; So when 1 day it is positive, it would be a complete shock and blessing... At first I would get so excited every month, always telling myself "this is the month, this is it" and sure enough every month I ended up in tears seeing that BFN... Now I shrug it off and move on b/c BFN is what I expect.

Easier said then done though I know!

 

[Lawhra]

Renee, I do the same thing. I tell myself af will show and if i'm late it's just that, late and it'll be negative (which it was). But the longer it goes the harder it is isn't it.

It sure is easier said than done, but on those momths when af is on time, which mine has been the past few cylces, so lucky I know! But back to being unpredictable and taunting me
Oh well, I guess just either test again soon if still a no show and hope for the best, or prepare for the sadness.
It's so good to vent on here, thank you!!