Letting go

[Las78]

We have our baby's burial on Monday, I was 17w+5 and had a gorgeous little boy. I've been trying not to think about it, am not quite sure how I'm going to be, in some ways I think it's going to bring everything back, all that happened, I'm scared it's going to make me feel those raw feelings again and I know then that I have to let go and I don't want to.

I spoke to the chaplain so I know whats happening, I need to know what to expect as I feel I may cope better that way.

Lots of people are sending flowers but I don't want them, he was ours and I don't want anyone else taking that away from us, we've already had enough taken away.

I've just listened to the song which we're having read out as he leaves us and I can't even explain how it's making me feel - this is the one I chose.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQN1N5xoBQA&feature=related

NOTE This is a sad song and has pics of scans and may be upsetting.

I have decided to have a red rose for love and a white rose for peace, I can't bring myself to go and get them though.

No parent should have to be doing this, I'm feeling very angry at the world right now.

Thanks for listening

 

[sunshine83]

I'm so sorry for your loss
I hope Monday goes as well as can be expected for you. I know it'll be hard but try to be strong for your little man, although he'll understand if you're not...

Have you asked people not to send flowers? Maybe you could ask a friend to collect them and take them somewhere for you? A hospital or something? Sorry if thats a daft idea...

You're right, no parent should have to go through what you are right now...

Thinking of you x x x

 

[Rebaby]

There are no words You're right, no one should have to go through what you are going through right now, and I am so sorry that this has happened to you.

I really hope it goes as well as can be expected on monday, I'll be thinking of you and your family

 

[Jessa]

Like Rebaby said, there are absolutely no words that anyone can say to make this better for you and your family. I'll be thinking about you on Monday.

 

[rachjim98]

I think that is a beautiful song for your precious little one. Just try to make it through Monday the best you can, I dont think anybody will be expecting you to keep it together.. How could you? I will be thinking of you sweety, I know sorry isnt alot but I really am sorry for you loss.

 

[ellie]

i wish i could say something that would help, but i can't i just hope that it goes as well as it could, but try not to worry about having to 'keep it together' by yourself, no one will be expecting that ... ask for support, you dont have to do it alone

 

[v2007]

Im so sorry, i remember Taylors funeral like it was yesterday, no parent should have to bury their child, its against nature,

Sending you loads of hugs for Monday, please feel free to PM me.

V xxxx

 

[RobenR]

That is the song my husband and I used for our daughter's memorial after our loss. Beautiful song and one I can't listen to without crying. I was 18w 3d.

I am sorry for your loss, it is a terrible to thing to go through and you found the most perfect song.

 

[Jemma_x]

Ill be honest, Laurens funeral was the worst day of my life. As v2007 said no parents should have to bury there child. I will be keeping you in my thoughts tomorrow and if you ever need to talk you can always Pm me

 

[todteach]

Sending you hugs, love and support. We'll all be thinking of you on Monday.

 

[Jkelmum]

Sorry you have to go through this like the others have said no words will help ive just sat and watched your lovely tribute to your little boy he will be very proud of how strong u are
thinking of u
hugs serina xxx