Lost my second depressed about my body.

[kittykat7210]

Hi,

I know this isn't the kind of post normally found on here, I didn't want to post on the loss forum for fears of appearing unsympathetic towards recently bereaved mothers.

I have been pregnant twice now, one I got to 14 weeks, this time I only got to 6. And after both I feel stripped of any sexy feelings at all. My boobs were lovely and big, I was a 28E before pregnancy, now I'm left with an expanded ribcage and saggy, flat boobs measuring a lowly 30D and barely filling that, but my boobs look and feel empty without a bra. I know this is part of the pregnancy process but I at least thought that I would have a child by the time my boobs deflated.

My boobs were the only part of my body I liked and now i hate them, I am uncomfortable around my partner naked or in underwear. I just don't know what to do.

Am I the only one?

Many thanks,
Kitty

 

[firsttimer123]

Hey kitty, I feel your pain.i gaine 12 pounds since mmc due to elevated hormones and just feel gross about myself. But I want to be pregnant again do not motivated to work it off no baby but still the weight

 

[OmarsMum]

I feel the same. I was 57 kgs in Jan last year, I had a chemical pregnancy in Jan last year, then a mmc at 12 w baby measuring around 10w, I added 6kgs when I was pregnant as I was on progesterone, my periods were not regular & I always felt bloated. I didn't even have energy to commit to exercising.


Now I'm going through another mc that is still not complete (blighted ovum at 12w scan measuring around 8w). Today I ate all sorts of crap as my I feel frustrated from the very slow progress of my mc. I didn't add weight this time as it was Ramadan last month and I fasted (it helped in controlling the nausea). But my body is retaining some fluids from the progesterone which I stopped 10 days back when the mc was confirmed.

My mc is not complete yet and now I can't wait to get done with it to start going back to the gym.

For me I feel my anger towards my body is a way of distraction from the real feelings of sorrow towards the mcs. I didn't have any attachments to this pregnancy which is awful. All what I want now is to get done with the mc, have a normal body and life.