May be on the road to first miscarriage

[Mrs Dragonfly]

I'm so scared right now. I was having heavy symptoms of heartburn and nausea in the beginning, tested positive on Sunday and Monday. I knew I was early in because I have long irregular cycles but my hcg levels aren't doubling and I started out with brown spotting but it's having moments of dark red.

Monday - hcg 38
Today (Thursday) - hcg 59

My symptoms have nearly vanished with occasional nausea. I know they can come and go, as they did with my first in the early weeks. But I never had red spotting and my levels were huge with my first.

 

[Mrs Dragonfly]

The brown turned to red and I had a small clot. I'm still only wearing pants liners but I've lost any hope. I hope the weekend passes quickly.

 

[justplay91]

I'm so sorry, Mrs Dragonfly. Big .

 

[Mrs Dragonfly]

I feel shattered. I'm only lightly bleeding and it feels eternal even though it's just begun. It took us a year to conceive our daughter, it felt too good to be true to catch on our first try for #2.

 

[Classic Girl]

Your levels sounded exactly like mine in Feb. I'm so sorry.

 

[Cowgirl07]

So sorry!

 

[Jencocoa]

Oh no I'm so sorry for the pain are going through right now. I wish this didn't have to happen.

 

[BecksBabyB]

Hi,

I have just left the hospital after an overnight stay due to a miscarriage.

It's heartbreaking and I'm thinking about you.

Bx

 

[busytulip]

Very, very sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking

 

[Sophie2015]

I'm very sorry for your loss as well. I've just lost #5. It never gets any easier. Big big hugs.

 

[Twag]

 

[BabyG2016]

I am in the process, too.

God Bless

 

[StillPraying]

How are you doing ma'am?

 

[Mrs Dragonfly]

I am in the process, too.

God Bless

I am so sorry you're going through it too

How are you doing ma'am?

Doing better, yesterday was the last day of my first af since my mc. The OB cleared us for trying again already and said there was no need to wait more cycles. Hubs is ready, but I feel nervous and unsure. During the first 3 days of af I was very emotional and cried a lot. Thank you for asking.

 

[StillPraying]

Its okay to wait if you need more time. Or go with ntnp while you recover emotionally. Its still very raw for you. ttc and having a rainbow do have a way of healing though

 

[Mrs Dragonfly]

I think NTNP is the route we'll go, it's how we got pregnant this last time...

I made the mistake of opening up to a close friend, I told them I'm still feeling raw because of my mc and when I said I was 6 weeks they told me how it was no big deal! I felt that life inside, and I felt it leave. With DD we saw her heartbeat at 6 weeks on the dot, this angel might not have ever had a heartbeat that we saw but they were a soul. I haven't been able to stop crying since my friend left. 6 weeks is very early yes, but it still hurts.

 

[tcinks]

I'm so sorry your friend said that. That is so hurtful! I've been hurt by a lot of things like that do, and what I try to do is remember that people who haven't been through just don't know how painful it is! It's not an excuse, but it keeps me from exploding. And then also knowing who I can open up to about it, and who I can't.

 

[StillPraying]

I'm so sorry your friend made light of it. That's awful. So many people don't realize how that bond starts as soon as you see those 2 pink lines. It's like I said in another post, since others can't see or feel the baby, they don't view them as a baby, as a living thing. don't let her words dig at you hun, you grieve as long as you need too.

 

[Cowgirl07]

Huge hugs dragonfly I remember you from ttc a long time ago. Sorry your friend was insensitive.