Missing my boy! (pic included)

[Jessicahide]

Tomorrow should have been my boys 10th birthday, its the first time I have been pregnant on his birthday, and I am in bits, I am sat here sobbing and cant stop! I was fine until about an hour ago, I just want to sleep and wake up next week. I can feel my little boy kicking around in my tummy, and I am so grateful he is there, but I just feel so heartbroken!

 

[Jessicahide]

This is him xxxx

 

[LoraLoo]

He's beautiful! What is his name? I know it can be very difficult being pregnant on your angels birthday- it's bittersweet. I hope tomorrow is gentle on you x

 

[Jessicahide]

Thank you xxx his name is Frazer, he was born at 36+6 and had curly dark hair I hope so too. xxxx

 

[LoraLoo]

Beautiful name for a beautiful boy 💙

 

[Springflower]

What a beautiful little boy, his name is lovely too. I'm So sorry for your loss. x

 

[ajr1990]

((hugs))

 

[Jessicahide]

What a beautiful little boy, his name is lovely too. I'm So sorry for your loss. x

Thank you xxx People just don't understand they think you "should get over it" but he was my everything, I don't know how I didn't die too, I really wanted to, I was a mummy with no baby and I was so lost... I know its been 10 years, but i miss him everyday and i miss who i was before i lost him, i had never felt grief before he went.... Sorry i keep going on, but my heart is hurting so much today.

 

[LoraLoo]

You're not going on- you have every right to talk about frazer and keep his memory alive. He is a big part of your life and always will be x

 

[Jessicahide]

You're not going on- you have every right to talk about frazer and keep his memory alive. He is a big part of your life and always will be x

Thank you x you are so sweet xxx Have you also lost a little one? xx

 

[Jessicahide]

Sorry i just noticed your ticker, i see you have been through so so much xxxx

 

[LoraLoo]

Yes we've lost 3 little ones- as you said you never get over it. Nor would we ever want to. You talk about your baby boy as much as you like 😘 do you have anything planned for tomorrow? X

 

[Jessicahide]

We always have a birthday cake for him, and we will be having a nice dinner, my two boys and my bump will keep me company xx My mother is having a family bbq, so that is great for her, but i said i cant come!

I am so sorry to hear about your three little ones i cant even pretend i know the horror one baby stolen from me was earth shattering, three, i cant even begin to process xxx what happened to them xxx With Frazer i had an undiagnosed clotting disorder...

 

[LoraLoo]

Enjoy your time with your own little family together, and your memories. Much love xx

 

[lisa1980]

I'm so sorry I can't even imagine what you're going through. The photo is lovely. What a beautiful baby.

 

[haydensmama08]

I am so sorry. I lost my baby boy at 13 weeks pregnant. I was too far along for a D&C so I delivered him. I wouldn't have it any other way. I got to hold him and say goodbye. I got closure. I would post a picture of Camron, but sometimes people don't want to see that. My husband says he doesn't want to look at Camron's memory book with me because it makes him worry about peanut.

 

[Jessicahide]

Sorry to hear about Cameron xxxx its so difficult we have pics of Frazer all around the house. Its a very personal thing, but its better if both parents deal with things the same way xxxx I have a friend who is not allowed pics of her girls out as one is not her partners, so she decided to not have pics of either its all very complicated xxxx

I know what you mean about posting pics online, that is why I edited my title so people knewxxx I would love to see a PIC of your special little man xxxx

 

[pinkpassion]

I am so sorry for your little ones lost-!! All you you ladies!!! It is a very hard thing to go through!!
Frazer is a handsome little guy!!!
Hayden, feel free to post pics of camron! I don't think anyone would shame you for sharing pictures of your sweet baby!!!