Momma Bear TTC #2 Baby Bear @ 37yo

[LillyTame]

I have a parenting journal and all I've been talking about is TTC, I feel like that's not fair to Baby Bear #1. So I'll document our journey to #2 here.

#1 took us a little over 2yrs because we spent a lot of time looking at me and not working on OH. He ended up on Clomid and we got our very 1st BFP right in the time frame the doctor said the Clomid would start working. We've been trying for #2 now since March. If OH's sperm count is better, we'll keep trying until Jan, if no BFP then we'll start looking at me again too to make sure nothing has changed with me.

OH:
Semen Analysis - (normal >14mil/mL, >39% motility)
06/2013 - 18 mil/mL, 29% motility
10/2013 - 15.30 mil/mL, 65% motility
09/2014 - 3.75 mil/mL, 48% motility
12/2014 - 4.93 mil/mL, 20% motility
12/2014 - 4.66 mil/mL, 60% motility
07/2017 - 34 mil/mL, 47% motility

Tesosterone - (8.7 - 25.1 - normal range)
12/2014 - 1.60 (low)
01/2015 - 1.54 (low) Started clomid
02/2015 - 7.14 (norm )
07/2017 - 6.30 (low) Started clomid
08/2017 - 12 (norm)

07/2017
Liquefaction - Incomplete
Rapid & Linear - 5%
Viability n/a
Normal ovals 1%
20% pyriform

FSH - 0.7-11.1 - normal range
12/2014 - FSH - 4.1 (norm)
02/2015 - FSH - 8.1 (norm)
07/2017 - FSH - 5.85 (norm)
08/2017 - FSH - 10.07 (norm)

01/2015 - OH started on Clomid
07/2017 - OH started on Clomid

 

[LillyTame]

In July OH was finally seen and started on Clomid again. He doesn't repeat his SA again until October but his blood work is showing improvement all ready.

I was reading that new sperm can be generated between 42-90 days, so we're in that window now and our timing was really good this cycle, so I'm really hopeful. Being hopeful sucks because it sure hurts when AF shows up.

So here I am, about 3dpo and ready to pee on all the sticks!

I thought I had missed my chance this cycle because I didn't have my usual OV signs which were due right around the same time as finals. So, I just thought stress from school caused a delay. I then remembered that a couple months earlier I was late oving too. I decided to look up my averages and noticed I OV late every other month! So according to that I was able to pinpoint this OV, it matched up perfectly! I don't remember if that was the case back when I had BB#1 but I did have long cycles back then too. I OV between CD18-23.

Sometimes I'm in the mood to symptom spot and record everything and sometimes I don't So I'll save this spot for that.

Mar - BFN
Apr - OV CD22, BFN
May - OV CD19, BFN
Jun - OV CD23, BFN
Jul - OV CD 18, NTNP, AF
Aug - OV CD 23, BFN

 

[LillyTame]

5dpo, can I test yet?! Lol The thought does cross my mind but it's not at the point where it's all I can think about. Maybe I'll try to hold off until this coming weekend.

 

[LillyTame]

6dpo, I think I'm going to make it through the night! lol No real symptoms. I seem to be in a better mood than I usually am at this point in my cycle. I noticed the same for my only BFP cycle.

 

[Cowgirl07]

Here

 

[Twag]

Stalking

 

[3chords]

7 DPO...you can start testing on Friday for sure.

 

[LillyTame]

Welcome, ladies! Thanks for keeping me company.

7dpo! I made it another day! I currently don't feel like testing. Hope that lasts all night. Tomorrow will be hard because I'm off. But I'll have BB and he doesn't let me go to the bathroom alone, so it's hard to pee on sticks. I might just make it until Friday. Maybe. Not counting on it lol

 

[Twag]

good luck with the holding off of testing

 

[LillyTame]

8 DPO BFN

 

[Twag]

Still early

 

[LillyTame]

9dpo BFN and I'm out of tests! Guess we wait until Wednesday....or until Amazon delivers my package... whichever comes first lol

 

[LillyTame]

I can't sleep. The long and short of it is I had spotting tonight. Way more than the IB had with BB. His was a few drops that could have easily been missed. This was a full tissue wipe worth but still all light pink. My app says AF is due tomorrow. My own count says Tuesday/Wednesday. Either way, I don't usually spot before AF. I had one good wipe worth of the spotting. Went to the bathroom about 2 hrs later and nothing! Nothing on the pad I put on either. I start to let my imagination run a little then I think, don't get your hopes up. You're going to be crushed to find full on AF in the morning. Either way... I can't sleep.

 

[Twag]

keeping everything crossed for you

 

[LillyTame]

is here

 

[Twag]

Sorry Lilly

 

[Mamabear78]

Hi I'm new to this, but wondering for those TTC are y'all on meds, do you have any tips for me? I am 39 i have 1-19yo son on college n my husband and I lost our baby in 2014 and really want to try and have our own together so decided to actively try before I turn 40 in March money is tight so iui and if may not be an option so any advice or tips appreciated. Also struggling with low libido for past several months HELP

 

[LillyTame]

Welcome, Mamabear78! This is a personal journal, so you might get more help in the general forums. Try TTC over 35yo. My recommendation is, if you haven't already, both you and your hubby get basic fertility lab work and a semen analysis done. Maybe because of your ages, they might not make you wait the usual year of TTC before they start testing. Good luck!

 

[LillyTame]

Cycle 1 of when OH's clomid is supposed to be working. I should be excited. Why am I not excited? Maybe because we've been trying since March and I want to be done with TTC. Maybe because OH is out of town (went to help with hurricane assistance) and we didn't know when he was returning so we arranged for my aunt to come visit from Cali in case he was gone when I started classes. I would need someone to watch BB and we didn't want to wait to the last minute in making arrangements because my aunt has 2 jobs, so she'd need to let them know. Anyway, it just so happens she is coming during my fertile week...and guess what! OH will be home for it too, even though we didn't think he would be. I can't imagine having sex with my auntie in the house and our house is just not big enough for me to even pretend that she wouldn't hear. Maybe we'll try softcups. I need to see if I have any. Le sigh. Why do I feel so blah?

 

[Hopeful Cat]

Staking oh no what unlucky timing with your Aunt!