I do feel there is quite a bit of pressure on me, especially from some of the older NICU nurses. They are being positive but also seem to be implying it's my fault, that I must be doing something wrong because something should be happening by now.
Different people at the hospital have told me different things too so it makes it quite difficult. I have been given advice on what I can do to help stimulate things and get it going, such as have pictures of my babies, but as a first time mum and with them being in the incubators I'm finding it hard to bond and get that 'mum' feeling. One of the things I got told was to visualise having a baby to the breast and how that felt when I expressed. Hard to do when you've never experienced it before so don't know how it feels!
My babies are now a week old and as I am only getting a few ml every couple of hours they have been put on formula because they have lost more weight than the medical staff would have liked. They're not worried about that though because the boys are losing it due to being very active (they wriggle and stretch all the time!) and because they have been on CPAP rather than a tubed ventilator from quite early on. They have also been having time breathing on their own over the last few days too.
I keep trying though!